Well, I hope I'll be getting my pay today. Lol. Been waiting for my pay for very long le. Hais. Haven't get it los. Fcuking long larhs. Gosh. Today woke up damn late los. 11am los. Omg Lucky didn't overslept. Guess I'm really tired bahr. Lol. Will be having training at night today. hope everything will go smoothly. (: Jiayou HQ guys. Let's aim for the best bahr. Wahahas. Got to prepare myself le. So, shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:35am
30.11.09

Labels: And I miss you (:

Hmm, didn't realise that I've not been posting for the past two days. Hahas. But whatever bahr. (: well. working later again. Yesterday didn't work, went to get a MC. Bored bored. For today I don't know what to post. Lol. Seriously nothing much to post.

Guess it's time to end here bahr? Hahas. Will update soon. Anyway, still waiting for my laptop to come back. Hope my data inside the laptop will not be lost los. Gosh. So I shall end here (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:22am
27.11.09

Labels: I want you (:

Hmm, went to repair my laptop yesterday, and it cost $45 for just a piece of keyboard neh! Nabei. Don't know want to repair not. OMG larhs. See how bahr. After that went to penisular shopping mall to buy my black cardigan. Then off to IMM to cancel my mobile broadband. After that jiu headed to jurong point to walk awhile. 1st time 1 day go so many shopping mall. Lol. Hahas. But whatever. Last but not least, headed to He Quan for training. OMG, training quite fun. As usual injure myself also. But not very serious (: But afterall it's fun larhs. Guys, let's all jiayou for next year competition. (: For fame and glory once again. Wahahas. (: Hopefully next time there's more team competition le. So we must trained very hard le. Hahas. But jiayou bahr. We can do it again together as a team! (:

Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:06am
25.11.09

Labels: don't worry so much

Well, I realise that I've been posting almost everyday le. Hahas. An hour from now jiu need go work le. OMG! 1 - 9 again! Bored larhs. Lucky tomorrow off wors! (: So it's still okay la. Hahas. (: Think tomorrow night will be having dragon training le. Sians larhs.

Meet up with WH yesterday. Well, he seems fine to me. Hahas. Will be meeting him soon, I think. Wah. He decided to play freestyle with with me wors. But don't know confirm not larhs. If confirm jiu shuang le. Then can tell Kor kor that we want train freestyle lion. (: Then hope he can faster arrange for freestyle training. Hahas. Been waiting for this day for don't know how long le los. Sians. ):

I guess I shall end here le bahr. (: Nothing much to post also le. Bored bored bored!

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:40am
23.11.09

Labels: 想要照顾你好好疼爱你

Labels: I'm just fine with you around

Yesterday chu shi quite fun? But raining. Abit messy also. Hahas. Went bugis street for opening ceremony of the food place. Haha. I cai qing again. But this time is normal stuns only. Hahas. The qing of beer la. Lucky I didn't drink. Hahas. Damn long to cai finish the qing larhs. Omg. So hot inside can? Next wednesday helping huang's clan perform dragon. Might not be going due to work. Lol. Sorry guys. (: Finally bought my slipper le. Hahas. A simple design. Hahas. Cause it look the best among all the design. Hahas. Later on got to work again. Hahas. Jiayou bahr! I want my PAY ! Argh! Hope later can get los. Hahas. Shall end le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:55am
21.11.09

你微微的笑温暖我心
让我有了冲劲动力
于是我又鼓起了勇气
决定要疯狂爱上你
千千万万的爱意等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
盛夏的回忆在偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里用最真的心
想对你说请相信我们之间距离
手牵着你紧紧抱着你

Hmm, finally today is my off day! But, later going for chu shi le. Bored. Then after that going repair laptop and stuff. Argh! So ma fan! I want my laptop to be repair asap! Gosh. Yesterday don't know why, when I reach my workplace suddenly don't have the mood to work. Butt lucky time pass real fast. If not I'm going to die of standing! Tomorrow working again. So I shall enjoy myself today. Hahas. (: I guess I shall end here le bahr? Hahas. I WANT MY PAY!

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
9:00am
20.11.09

Labels: Hold on tight to me (:

Well, work work and more work! Sians. Tomorrow finally off! But got chu shi, then after chu shi got to go so many place to do my things. BORED! Sians sians sians. Later got work again! OMG! Sians la. Nowadays I keep want to sleep while working los. Not that I'm tired. It's cause it's damn boring. Lol. Argh! One month pass only los! Still got 3 more months! Sians larhs! ): how to go on. Whatever bahr. Still must tahan de. Hais. Sians. Nowadays seriously got nothing to blog los. Sians. So maybe will post every two day bahr. (: Guess I shall end le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:28am
19.11.09

Labels: 我爱上你了

Hmm, it's been days since I last blog. Busy with work thus I'm seriously lazy to blog. Fcuk. Dragon training is resuming soon. Timing is 11pm! So late can? But no choice larhs. Going for competition next year. So must start training le. Hais. So tired can! The next day still got work some more. Going to be tired like don't know what le. Lol. Sians. Seriously have no idea what to blog already. Blog for the sake of not letting my blog to rot only. Lol. Freaking sians los. But updated my blog with songs. Wahahas. Guess I shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:12pm
17.11.09

Labels: 我爱你

It's been a month since my attachment start. It'a still quite okay los? Somehow I still prefer to work in the warehouse than retai shop. Cause time pass faster inside warehouse. Sians. Later working again. OMG larhs. Hope today the time will pass as fast as yesterday! Hahas. (: Sians larhs. Don't know what to post also. I WANT REPAIR MY LAPTOP! Shall end bahr?



Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:44am
14.11.09

Labels: Let time prove it bahr

Gosh, yesterday went to HP service centre, ended up a wasted trip! Fcuk! Need to go to Harvey Norman authorise service centre to repair laptop, so the fees can be waive. My god larhs! The place at clark quay there larhs! So damn far, don't know when then got time go there. Sians larhs. Later working again. Hope today time can pass real fast. It's SO DAMN BORED larhs. But today is friday, hopefully there's more people bahr. Then more time will be spend to entertain the customer. So time will pass faster. Hahas. But it's really so bored larhs. Stand there like statue los. Only when customer come then can move around. If not need continue stand there. Omg. Need find something to keep me busy I won't be so bored. Guess I shall end here le. (:

Labels: This is the way man

Somehow or another I really hope this attachment can end faster! Argh, I really buay ta han already! Omg! Don't know why this one week, I don't really have the mood to work eh. Lol. Next off is on next friday, but got chu shi larhs! How to rest! Fcuk los! Someday I'll collapse de larhs! Hais. How how?

As time passby, I realise I'm much more happier with the life I'm having now. Like what I'll be living a new life. Somehow this new life is much happier for me, excluding attachment! Hahas. Now as stress as before. (:

To Miya : It's good that the wedding still goes on. (: Whatever it is, he's still the one for you. Be happy bahr. It's somehow what you wanted all along. (: Smile more (:
To CSC : Really hope this time you can do it. (: Whatever thing that's going to happen or will happen, don't let them change your mind anymore. It's too tough for you take it already. Take care of yourself too. Thanks for concerning, I'll look after myself de.
To WH : It's been long since we last meet up larhs! Omg! We two seems to working nowadays. Find one day we must meet up le. Hahas. Then you happy ANOT! (:

Hahas. Guess I shall end here le. Before I forget, can someone get me the gorilla soft toy or monkey soft toy selling at Cards N Such ma? Damn Cute larhs! Wahahas.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:35pm
12.11.09

Labels: Monkey is the loved

Argh, work, work and work! Waiting for my off this coming thursday. Really need go repair laptop! Argh. This few days, body is playing tricks on me! Feeling really unwell. Hais. Don't know what happen also. Fcuk the sick feeling! Argh! Later have to work again! Bored. Tomorrow jiu go to Centre Point le. Lol. Like so weird larhs. Move here and there. Hahas. Bored larhs. Doing the same old things again. Argh! Nothing much to blog also le. Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:16am
10.11.09

Labels: Feeling unwell now, hais

Haven't been able to blog as my laptop is spoil. Will be sending my laptop for repair this coming thursday as I'm off for the day (: This few days quite a number of things happen. Sorry friends for being spammed by the same person. Well, I guess this time I really know what I should do already. I should no longer wait for the both of them already, I'll really let go of everything and start afresh (:

I guess this is what I should really do already. Waiting isn't a solution. I should jolly well wake up in my dreamland that I'll ever going to get them back. For it's impossible. Well, this few days been working at retail shop either at Rafffles City or Suntec, will be stationing at Centre Point from this coming wednesday till end of december bahr? This what the store supervisior says la. (: So I can only obey to it. (:

Bored larhs. Working later. So this post will be short. Wonder will I be able to post again. (: But will still post if i can de. Well. I guess this is it bahr? It's what everyone wish for also bahr? I should get a new life, a new relationship and of cause a new girl for myself. But will take time bahr? Hahas. It's not so easy to get one. Hahas. So I guess i will just end this post here.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:12am
08.11.09

Labels: A brand new start from today (:

Seriously, I don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong. All along, I didn't have any intention being a third party in their life. Yes, I did say I want her back. But i didn't mention anything about snatching her from him. Though I still love her, I want her back, I want her to be mine once again. But it's all my thinking, my feelings. I know she love him loads, she don't bear to leave him. That's why I didn't do anything to get her back. I'm just simply being there for her whenever she need someone to be there.

To CSC : I know you feel that I'm being the third party in their party, I know it's wrong to be the third party. But don't you worry, I'm not going to be their third party. I told her to follow her heart, make the wise choice. Somehow the baby is he's, if she really love him, then continue the wedding, everything had be planned already. Whatever her decision is, I don't know and won't know untill she tell me. As long as she's happy, I'll be contented. If you still feel that I'm being a third party in their life, then I've nothing much to say. I'm not trying to explain anything. Just don't want you to feel that I'm a third party. I know it's your freedom to say things. Thanks, I know everything you say, is for my own good. I understand. I didn't blame you. (:

What I can do now, is just be there for her, lend her a listening ear, a shoulder to lean. That's all. I didn't really have much hope that she'll be back to my side. Whatever decision that she's going to make, I won't be affected. I'll still continue my life like normal. Maybe it's fate that we meet, but destiny seperated us. Hais. I really don't know what else can I do already.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:00am
04.11.09

Labels: Is it right this way

I guess, I know what I really want now. Being there for her is what I can do only. So many things happen her during these period of time, she seems to be weaker and weaker. But there's nothing I can for her. I don't want to see her suffering, but I myself let her suffer. I know I don't any right to comment on anything that's happening between them. Somehow, I feel like having her back. But is this what she want? Will things turn out to be better? I don't know, but I'll try. I know if I were to get her back from his side, alot of unpleasant comment will start to appear. But I just don't want to see her suffering anymore. Maybe I'm not better in anyway, but at least I'll try. I don't know if it's the right decision or not. But all these things will have to wait till she make a decision. If not I can only wait silently. Lol.

This decision doesn't really came out all of a sudden. Many things had been flashing through my mind all these while. But I've yet to really sit down and think. But yesterday I really sit down and think, called nu er and told her alot of things. She's really someone whom I can really talk to whenever I've things to say. Thanks loads. Will be meeting her this thursday, it's been 1 years plus since we last met. Have so much things to tell her. Hahas. Anyway back to the main topic. I've sort out something that I'm unsure about after the chat with her. I know what I should do and what I want now.

To CSC : I guess we should just stay the way we're now. Friend we shall be. Go for your HIM bahr. I guess you two have chance of getting back together de. Good luck. It's nice to meet you. We once were to together, but I guess we're just not fate to be couple bahr? You still have HIM in you heart, I still have HER in my heart. We should just follow our heart. But whenever you need me, I'll still be here for you. All these while it's really great to know you. Hahas. I guess we should really go le bahr? We still can be friends, be gans whatever you name it. But not enemies, not stranger. I've really sort out my question, and I got answer to it already. But somehow or another, I still love her alot. Maybe there isn't much chance for me of getting her back. But I'll still try, I seriously don't want to see her the way she is now. I really want to have her back. I only have one month to do that. But it all depend on her decisions. Maybe you'll say I'm silly, foolish or anything you name it. But I only know one thing, I love her. Thus it's okay for people to blame me, scold me or whatever they want. I just want her back that's all.

Well, all I want to say is that, I still love you. I'll be waiting for you. Even if chances are low, but I'll still wait. Shall end here already, lastly I want you back ):

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:01am
03.11.09

Labels: I love you still

Had a strange dream last night. Wonder why I've such a dream. Well, I still think that love is really a weird thing, somethings that we can't control. Feeling comes, feelings fade just like this. This moment you may love someone, the other moment you may hate that person. But whatever it is, life do goes with or without love. Live a life of your own, don't live your life for someone else. As it's your life, every decision you're making, every steps you're going take, will affect your life. Love is just part of it. You'll have to learn how to take it and how to let go it. Hanging to something that have no ending will only make yourself more hurt more tough. Wonder what I'm going for today, it's chu yi again. Means vegetarian food for me again. Guess won't be eating like usual. No mood to eat also. Single life isn't so bad afterall, I'm getting used to being single as days pass by. It's so carefree, so relax. Nothing to worry about, for I'm on my own. Guess I shall end here, have nothing to post also. (: Take care.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:56am
01.11.09

Hmm, next week on I'll be going to retail shop to work instead of warehouse le. Hahas. Should be okay bahr? Hahas. Working from 1pm to 9pm. Hahas. Should be more relax bahr. Thursday will be my off day. (: Hmm, should staying there till next year le bahr? Either at Raffles City Shopping Mall or Suntec. Hahas. Sians los.

Well, what's love actually? Hahas. Even though you know that there may not be happy ending in waiting for someone, but just because you love him/her, you'll still want to wait for them, will still want to love them, will you hope for him/her to accept you. But you just don't know what you should really do, don't know what that person have in mind. You don't dare to ask but deep in your heart you really want an answer from that person, whether is there any chances for you not. It's not that you don't want to give up, it's just that you don't know how to do that. For you love that person too much already, so it's really hard to give up. Well, somehow that's love bahr? I don't know also.

All I can say, is follow your heart bahr, CSC, whatever it is, don't do something that will hurt you. I don't know how long can you hang on or continue waiting. Find back your confidence, have faith in yourself. The decision that you're going to make is really important. Whatever it is, I'm always here for you. Feel free to find me if you want. (: Can lend you a listening ear or a shoulder to lean if you want. I don't wish to see you hurt yourself already. Just try your luck bahr. Love is all about gambling. Hahas. You'll at least have 50% chances if you try, if you don't try, you'll not even if 0.01% of chances. So go ahead with your decision bahr. You've my support. Silly you. (:

LOL. It's November le. Lol. 24 more days from now will be 25 Nov, two year back I found her on this date, but everything had already come to an end le. Lol. I've lose someone whom I love so much, and now she's getting married in one months time. Seeing her happy, I'll be happy le. I've no say to anything already. She's no longer mine already, 25 nov maybe gone, but it'll never be forgotten. 25 nov 07 - 20 june 09 will always be remember in my heart. (: Hahas. Take care of yourself, you'll look prettier in your wedding gown, I'm sure of it. (: Enjoy your life with after you marry with him, hope he'll really learn to cherish you well. I can be there for you in the smallest and darkest corner from now. If we happen to see each other on the road, do remember to say HI okay? Hahas. Somehow I always lose the girl I love so much, the first one is her. The second one is CSC.

She's waiting for him to come back to her, even though she know nothing will turn out right but she still decide to wait for him. Lol. Well, good luck bahr. Your love for him, I'm sure one day he'll know and maybe he'll come back to you someday also. Hahas. Must really have confidence in yourself. Don't give up untill the last minute okay? You also must look after yourself, always sick here and there. Hahas. (: Slap you then you know !

251107 & 010909 will never be forgotten. ):

Shall end here le. Nights people !

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:52am
01.11.09

Labels: Find back your confidence

Well, I hope I'll be getting my pay today. Lol. Been waiting for my pay for very long le. Hais. Haven't get it los. Fcuking long larhs. Gosh. Today woke up damn late los. 11am los. Omg Lucky didn't overslept. Guess I'm really tired bahr. Lol. Will be having training at night today. hope everything will go smoothly. (: Jiayou HQ guys. Let's aim for the best bahr. Wahahas. Got to prepare myself le. So, shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:35am
30.11.09

Labels: And I miss you (:

Hmm, didn't realise that I've not been posting for the past two days. Hahas. But whatever bahr. (: well. working later again. Yesterday didn't work, went to get a MC. Bored bored. For today I don't know what to post. Lol. Seriously nothing much to post.

Guess it's time to end here bahr? Hahas. Will update soon. Anyway, still waiting for my laptop to come back. Hope my data inside the laptop will not be lost los. Gosh. So I shall end here (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:22am
27.11.09

Labels: I want you (:

Hmm, went to repair my laptop yesterday, and it cost $45 for just a piece of keyboard neh! Nabei. Don't know want to repair not. OMG larhs. See how bahr. After that went to penisular shopping mall to buy my black cardigan. Then off to IMM to cancel my mobile broadband. After that jiu headed to jurong point to walk awhile. 1st time 1 day go so many shopping mall. Lol. Hahas. But whatever. Last but not least, headed to He Quan for training. OMG, training quite fun. As usual injure myself also. But not very serious (: But afterall it's fun larhs. Guys, let's all jiayou for next year competition. (: For fame and glory once again. Wahahas. (: Hopefully next time there's more team competition le. So we must trained very hard le. Hahas. But jiayou bahr. We can do it again together as a team! (:

Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:06am
25.11.09

Labels: don't worry so much

Well, I realise that I've been posting almost everyday le. Hahas. An hour from now jiu need go work le. OMG! 1 - 9 again! Bored larhs. Lucky tomorrow off wors! (: So it's still okay la. Hahas. (: Think tomorrow night will be having dragon training le. Sians larhs.

Meet up with WH yesterday. Well, he seems fine to me. Hahas. Will be meeting him soon, I think. Wah. He decided to play freestyle with with me wors. But don't know confirm not larhs. If confirm jiu shuang le. Then can tell Kor kor that we want train freestyle lion. (: Then hope he can faster arrange for freestyle training. Hahas. Been waiting for this day for don't know how long le los. Sians. ):

I guess I shall end here le bahr. (: Nothing much to post also le. Bored bored bored!

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:40am
23.11.09

Labels: 想要照顾你好好疼爱你

Labels: I'm just fine with you around

Yesterday chu shi quite fun? But raining. Abit messy also. Hahas. Went bugis street for opening ceremony of the food place. Haha. I cai qing again. But this time is normal stuns only. Hahas. The qing of beer la. Lucky I didn't drink. Hahas. Damn long to cai finish the qing larhs. Omg. So hot inside can? Next wednesday helping huang's clan perform dragon. Might not be going due to work. Lol. Sorry guys. (: Finally bought my slipper le. Hahas. A simple design. Hahas. Cause it look the best among all the design. Hahas. Later on got to work again. Hahas. Jiayou bahr! I want my PAY ! Argh! Hope later can get los. Hahas. Shall end le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:55am
21.11.09

你微微的笑温暖我心
让我有了冲劲动力
于是我又鼓起了勇气
决定要疯狂爱上你
千千万万的爱意等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
盛夏的回忆在偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里用最真的心
想对你说请相信我们之间距离
手牵着你紧紧抱着你

Hmm, finally today is my off day! But, later going for chu shi le. Bored. Then after that going repair laptop and stuff. Argh! So ma fan! I want my laptop to be repair asap! Gosh. Yesterday don't know why, when I reach my workplace suddenly don't have the mood to work. Butt lucky time pass real fast. If not I'm going to die of standing! Tomorrow working again. So I shall enjoy myself today. Hahas. (: I guess I shall end here le bahr? Hahas. I WANT MY PAY!

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
9:00am
20.11.09

Labels: Hold on tight to me (:

Well, work work and more work! Sians. Tomorrow finally off! But got chu shi, then after chu shi got to go so many place to do my things. BORED! Sians sians sians. Later got work again! OMG! Sians la. Nowadays I keep want to sleep while working los. Not that I'm tired. It's cause it's damn boring. Lol. Argh! One month pass only los! Still got 3 more months! Sians larhs! ): how to go on. Whatever bahr. Still must tahan de. Hais. Sians. Nowadays seriously got nothing to blog los. Sians. So maybe will post every two day bahr. (: Guess I shall end le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:28am
19.11.09

Labels: 我爱上你了

Hmm, it's been days since I last blog. Busy with work thus I'm seriously lazy to blog. Fcuk. Dragon training is resuming soon. Timing is 11pm! So late can? But no choice larhs. Going for competition next year. So must start training le. Hais. So tired can! The next day still got work some more. Going to be tired like don't know what le. Lol. Sians. Seriously have no idea what to blog already. Blog for the sake of not letting my blog to rot only. Lol. Freaking sians los. But updated my blog with songs. Wahahas. Guess I shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:12pm
17.11.09

Labels: 我爱你

It's been a month since my attachment start. It'a still quite okay los? Somehow I still prefer to work in the warehouse than retai shop. Cause time pass faster inside warehouse. Sians. Later working again. OMG larhs. Hope today the time will pass as fast as yesterday! Hahas. (: Sians larhs. Don't know what to post also. I WANT REPAIR MY LAPTOP! Shall end bahr?



Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:44am
14.11.09

Labels: Let time prove it bahr

Gosh, yesterday went to HP service centre, ended up a wasted trip! Fcuk! Need to go to Harvey Norman authorise service centre to repair laptop, so the fees can be waive. My god larhs! The place at clark quay there larhs! So damn far, don't know when then got time go there. Sians larhs. Later working again. Hope today time can pass real fast. It's SO DAMN BORED larhs. But today is friday, hopefully there's more people bahr. Then more time will be spend to entertain the customer. So time will pass faster. Hahas. But it's really so bored larhs. Stand there like statue los. Only when customer come then can move around. If not need continue stand there. Omg. Need find something to keep me busy I won't be so bored. Guess I shall end here le. (:

Labels: This is the way man

Somehow or another I really hope this attachment can end faster! Argh, I really buay ta han already! Omg! Don't know why this one week, I don't really have the mood to work eh. Lol. Next off is on next friday, but got chu shi larhs! How to rest! Fcuk los! Someday I'll collapse de larhs! Hais. How how?

As time passby, I realise I'm much more happier with the life I'm having now. Like what I'll be living a new life. Somehow this new life is much happier for me, excluding attachment! Hahas. Now as stress as before. (:

To Miya : It's good that the wedding still goes on. (: Whatever it is, he's still the one for you. Be happy bahr. It's somehow what you wanted all along. (: Smile more (:
To CSC : Really hope this time you can do it. (: Whatever thing that's going to happen or will happen, don't let them change your mind anymore. It's too tough for you take it already. Take care of yourself too. Thanks for concerning, I'll look after myself de.
To WH : It's been long since we last meet up larhs! Omg! We two seems to working nowadays. Find one day we must meet up le. Hahas. Then you happy ANOT! (:

Hahas. Guess I shall end here le. Before I forget, can someone get me the gorilla soft toy or monkey soft toy selling at Cards N Such ma? Damn Cute larhs! Wahahas.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:35pm
12.11.09

Labels: Monkey is the loved

Argh, work, work and work! Waiting for my off this coming thursday. Really need go repair laptop! Argh. This few days, body is playing tricks on me! Feeling really unwell. Hais. Don't know what happen also. Fcuk the sick feeling! Argh! Later have to work again! Bored. Tomorrow jiu go to Centre Point le. Lol. Like so weird larhs. Move here and there. Hahas. Bored larhs. Doing the same old things again. Argh! Nothing much to blog also le. Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:16am
10.11.09

Labels: Feeling unwell now, hais

Haven't been able to blog as my laptop is spoil. Will be sending my laptop for repair this coming thursday as I'm off for the day (: This few days quite a number of things happen. Sorry friends for being spammed by the same person. Well, I guess this time I really know what I should do already. I should no longer wait for the both of them already, I'll really let go of everything and start afresh (:

I guess this is what I should really do already. Waiting isn't a solution. I should jolly well wake up in my dreamland that I'll ever going to get them back. For it's impossible. Well, this few days been working at retail shop either at Rafffles City or Suntec, will be stationing at Centre Point from this coming wednesday till end of december bahr? This what the store supervisior says la. (: So I can only obey to it. (:

Bored larhs. Working later. So this post will be short. Wonder will I be able to post again. (: But will still post if i can de. Well. I guess this is it bahr? It's what everyone wish for also bahr? I should get a new life, a new relationship and of cause a new girl for myself. But will take time bahr? Hahas. It's not so easy to get one. Hahas. So I guess i will just end this post here.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:12am
08.11.09

Labels: A brand new start from today (:

Seriously, I don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong. All along, I didn't have any intention being a third party in their life. Yes, I did say I want her back. But i didn't mention anything about snatching her from him. Though I still love her, I want her back, I want her to be mine once again. But it's all my thinking, my feelings. I know she love him loads, she don't bear to leave him. That's why I didn't do anything to get her back. I'm just simply being there for her whenever she need someone to be there.

To CSC : I know you feel that I'm being the third party in their party, I know it's wrong to be the third party. But don't you worry, I'm not going to be their third party. I told her to follow her heart, make the wise choice. Somehow the baby is he's, if she really love him, then continue the wedding, everything had be planned already. Whatever her decision is, I don't know and won't know untill she tell me. As long as she's happy, I'll be contented. If you still feel that I'm being a third party in their life, then I've nothing much to say. I'm not trying to explain anything. Just don't want you to feel that I'm a third party. I know it's your freedom to say things. Thanks, I know everything you say, is for my own good. I understand. I didn't blame you. (:

What I can do now, is just be there for her, lend her a listening ear, a shoulder to lean. That's all. I didn't really have much hope that she'll be back to my side. Whatever decision that she's going to make, I won't be affected. I'll still continue my life like normal. Maybe it's fate that we meet, but destiny seperated us. Hais. I really don't know what else can I do already.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
10:00am
04.11.09

Labels: Is it right this way

I guess, I know what I really want now. Being there for her is what I can do only. So many things happen her during these period of time, she seems to be weaker and weaker. But there's nothing I can for her. I don't want to see her suffering, but I myself let her suffer. I know I don't any right to comment on anything that's happening between them. Somehow, I feel like having her back. But is this what she want? Will things turn out to be better? I don't know, but I'll try. I know if I were to get her back from his side, alot of unpleasant comment will start to appear. But I just don't want to see her suffering anymore. Maybe I'm not better in anyway, but at least I'll try. I don't know if it's the right decision or not. But all these things will have to wait till she make a decision. If not I can only wait silently. Lol.

This decision doesn't really came out all of a sudden. Many things had been flashing through my mind all these while. But I've yet to really sit down and think. But yesterday I really sit down and think, called nu er and told her alot of things. She's really someone whom I can really talk to whenever I've things to say. Thanks loads. Will be meeting her this thursday, it's been 1 years plus since we last met. Have so much things to tell her. Hahas. Anyway back to the main topic. I've sort out something that I'm unsure about after the chat with her. I know what I should do and what I want now.

To CSC : I guess we should just stay the way we're now. Friend we shall be. Go for your HIM bahr. I guess you two have chance of getting back together de. Good luck. It's nice to meet you. We once were to together, but I guess we're just not fate to be couple bahr? You still have HIM in you heart, I still have HER in my heart. We should just follow our heart. But whenever you need me, I'll still be here for you. All these while it's really great to know you. Hahas. I guess we should really go le bahr? We still can be friends, be gans whatever you name it. But not enemies, not stranger. I've really sort out my question, and I got answer to it already. But somehow or another, I still love her alot. Maybe there isn't much chance for me of getting her back. But I'll still try, I seriously don't want to see her the way she is now. I really want to have her back. I only have one month to do that. But it all depend on her decisions. Maybe you'll say I'm silly, foolish or anything you name it. But I only know one thing, I love her. Thus it's okay for people to blame me, scold me or whatever they want. I just want her back that's all.

Well, all I want to say is that, I still love you. I'll be waiting for you. Even if chances are low, but I'll still wait. Shall end here already, lastly I want you back ):

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:01am
03.11.09

Labels: I love you still

Had a strange dream last night. Wonder why I've such a dream. Well, I still think that love is really a weird thing, somethings that we can't control. Feeling comes, feelings fade just like this. This moment you may love someone, the other moment you may hate that person. But whatever it is, life do goes with or without love. Live a life of your own, don't live your life for someone else. As it's your life, every decision you're making, every steps you're going take, will affect your life. Love is just part of it. You'll have to learn how to take it and how to let go it. Hanging to something that have no ending will only make yourself more hurt more tough. Wonder what I'm going for today, it's chu yi again. Means vegetarian food for me again. Guess won't be eating like usual. No mood to eat also. Single life isn't so bad afterall, I'm getting used to being single as days pass by. It's so carefree, so relax. Nothing to worry about, for I'm on my own. Guess I shall end here, have nothing to post also. (: Take care.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:56am
01.11.09

Hmm, next week on I'll be going to retail shop to work instead of warehouse le. Hahas. Should be okay bahr? Hahas. Working from 1pm to 9pm. Hahas. Should be more relax bahr. Thursday will be my off day. (: Hmm, should staying there till next year le bahr? Either at Raffles City Shopping Mall or Suntec. Hahas. Sians los.

Well, what's love actually? Hahas. Even though you know that there may not be happy ending in waiting for someone, but just because you love him/her, you'll still want to wait for them, will still want to love them, will you hope for him/her to accept you. But you just don't know what you should really do, don't know what that person have in mind. You don't dare to ask but deep in your heart you really want an answer from that person, whether is there any chances for you not. It's not that you don't want to give up, it's just that you don't know how to do that. For you love that person too much already, so it's really hard to give up. Well, somehow that's love bahr? I don't know also.

All I can say, is follow your heart bahr, CSC, whatever it is, don't do something that will hurt you. I don't know how long can you hang on or continue waiting. Find back your confidence, have faith in yourself. The decision that you're going to make is really important. Whatever it is, I'm always here for you. Feel free to find me if you want. (: Can lend you a listening ear or a shoulder to lean if you want. I don't wish to see you hurt yourself already. Just try your luck bahr. Love is all about gambling. Hahas. You'll at least have 50% chances if you try, if you don't try, you'll not even if 0.01% of chances. So go ahead with your decision bahr. You've my support. Silly you. (:

LOL. It's November le. Lol. 24 more days from now will be 25 Nov, two year back I found her on this date, but everything had already come to an end le. Lol. I've lose someone whom I love so much, and now she's getting married in one months time. Seeing her happy, I'll be happy le. I've no say to anything already. She's no longer mine already, 25 nov maybe gone, but it'll never be forgotten. 25 nov 07 - 20 june 09 will always be remember in my heart. (: Hahas. Take care of yourself, you'll look prettier in your wedding gown, I'm sure of it. (: Enjoy your life with after you marry with him, hope he'll really learn to cherish you well. I can be there for you in the smallest and darkest corner from now. If we happen to see each other on the road, do remember to say HI okay? Hahas. Somehow I always lose the girl I love so much, the first one is her. The second one is CSC.

She's waiting for him to come back to her, even though she know nothing will turn out right but she still decide to wait for him. Lol. Well, good luck bahr. Your love for him, I'm sure one day he'll know and maybe he'll come back to you someday also. Hahas. Must really have confidence in yourself. Don't give up untill the last minute okay? You also must look after yourself, always sick here and there. Hahas. (: Slap you then you know !

251107 & 010909 will never be forgotten. ):

Shall end here le. Nights people !

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:52am
01.11.09

Labels: Find back your confidence