It's where it begins .

Congrats Guys.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Hahas, congrats hequan for getting what we want, though still got abit disapointed la, but we're very glad to achieve something la. Omg, we didn't expect to get that, well done, all the training really pays off. Hahas. Thus Dragon Competition is over, up comes Lion Competiton. Omg, going to be stress again, sibei jia lat.

Wirh regards to Passerby & Guest Tags : No one ask my girlfriend to read -- comments, thus also no one ask you to read my girlfriend or my comments. If -- have the rights to comment and say out her feeling, so does my girlfriend. It's a very simple logic. Lol. If you want my girlfriend to put her own name, why not you put your own name first? If you're not doing it, don't ask other people to do it.

Shall end here. Buais. Load of love and misses.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
22:44pm
31.05.09

Speechless.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Hmm, the day is just very near le. Everything hardwork we put in hope it'll pay off during that day itself. No mistakes and everything goes smoothly. That's all we ask for. Maybe get at least a forth place. We don't ask for much.

Sometimes I'm wondering, why does people want to spam other people blog. They really have nothing better to do eh. It's like the don't know how many time people had spam le los. Don't know why there isn't a stop to the spamming. Seeing other people break up will make them happy is it? I seriously don't get it los. But don't worry, no matter how many time you all try to do things to break us up, we'll never make you wish come true. Try as many time as you want, but you'll never succeed. Think twice before you do that, cause one day you'll know the feeling too.

Guess I should end here. Nights.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:09am
27.05.09

All I Need Is You (:.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Hmm, had been training for the past few months le. Finally it's left with 4 more days to competition le. Hahas. Just dotted our competition a few hours ago. Hahas. Hard work had been put in, hope we'll achieve what we aimed for. So anxious about it. Good luck guys, we can do it as a TEAM.

Hmm, she had been sick for quite some time le, don't know what happen. She doesn't seems to have recover at all. Hais. So worry about her. Hmm, hope she's alright. Won't be seeing her till wednesday and friday. After that she'll be having her holidays, which means won't be meeting her during her entire holiday. Hais. It's always like that, so don't need to be surprise.

Many many things keep running through my mind. Although she didn't say anything but somehow I feel that she'd a difficult time of forgetting him and their past. She seems to be very strong, but deep inside her, she's very weak. I don't know what I can do to help her. I can't leave her, cause I don't know what silly thing she may do to herself. I don't want anythings to happen to her.

Hmm, if letting go is really very tough, then just forget about it. Don't force yourself, I don't wish to see you so sad and trouble about it. Sometime I really wonder, if did I come into her life in the right time? People don't seems to be happy to know or see that I'm together with her. Hais. Am I really giving her the happiness she wants? Is she really happy being together with me? Does she feel irritated by me or feel loved by me? I really don't know. Hais. Am I really filt to fill up the space that he once 'stayed' before or I can never enter that place? Or am I even allowed to step into that place?

Sorry if I really fail to enter that place. I really don't want to see you so stress and sad. It's really hurts to see that. It's 12:55 now, thus Happy 1 Year 6 Months Anniversary. Sorry can't pei you celebrate, cause got school. Hais. I always failed to celebrate our anniversary together. Sorry. Not because I don't want to, but it's always because I've something on, if not that day will be a weekend or public holiday. I guess I really don't have the chance of fate to celebrate with you bahr?

I wonder if I've any chance to choose anot. If I've I'll choose to be by your side taking care of you. Even if I've to keep quiet, and leave after taking care of you, as long as I can take care of you, it's already enough for me. But will I be given this chance to make this choice? Even if I've the chance, when will it be? Don't blame yourself for not meeting or what, it's not your fault. I know i always grumble, or keep asking when can we meet, can we meet on weekends/holidays. But I never once blame you. I know you don't want anything to happen, although they allowed us to be together, but I know you don't want to risk. So it's okay not meeting me, I'll be fine.

It's already 1 year 6 months, since we're together. and all along, I know in your heart, I don't occupy fully, maybe it's half or maybe it's less than half. Hais. Or maybe more than half? Cause I really don't know who's took more space in your heart. And I tried to find out from you, but there's no answer to it. Thus I never ask anymore. I know all I need to do is just to love you, concern you, take care of you and dote you. That's my responsibility.

Silly girl, you always make me so worry, and how many knocks have you owe me? One day I must really KNOCK till you not so silly anymore. Hehes. >< Bleahs! I go rest le, muacks. Sayang sayang.

Signing off
N.Boy (:
01.14am
25.05.09

Just Hope Everything Come To An End.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Hmm, today she cried. Finally cry le, I hope this cry will make her feel better. Cry not because I made her angry or upset her, but cried because of him. He said something that really really hurt her alot. As an outsider I also feel that those words are too hurtful for a girl. Hais. She has been feeling down for many days le. Just hope she'll be fine soon. Sometime I think going to beach when you're feeling down, really make you feel better, because the sea really make you feel so peaceful and calm. But I don't know if she's really feeling better. I also don't know if she can really let go out. I know it's hard, but I can see and feel that she's trying her best to let go. I saw her smile this few days, a pleasant smile, not something that she fake out.

I've a silly girl, a girl who once loved him so much, but he don't know how to treasure her. I don't know how they ended up in that situation, don't know who hurt who more, don't know how hurtful the both of them were, but I just know they once love each other deeply, and once hurt each other deeply. And now she's trying to forget about him, about their past, their love story, she's also going to get rid of the stuffs he gave her, the ring they both once wore. Let all this come to an end bahr. What past is past, thinking about it again only hurt yourself more. If something is meant to be let go, just let it go. Holding on to it won't make you feel happier.

As for Miki comment, I admit my english is poor, but this is my blog, so whether I want to blog on, or I should blog on anot. have nothing to do with you. Thanks for your comment. But if your is english is much better than me then it's really good for you. So just simply keep the comment to yourself. Thanks.

As for -- comment, I'll last long with my current girlfriend, I've really forgotten about you. For I don't see a point to remember that. I really don't know why we're together. But glad that it's gone now. Sorry for the nasty comment and attitude I gave. So for now, just leave me alone, (: I still welcome you to view my blog. But don't give nasty comment about anything.

Well, guess that's all for today. I shall end here. Lastly, I love you silly girl. We've walked this far already, I really don;t want and don't wish to give it up so easily. And you're really so silly larhs. Love you to bits larhs! Muacks.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:31pm
21.05.09

6 More Days.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Hmm, glad that you're finally making the descision to forget him le. Before today, he really took up a big space in your heart, and only a small part of your heart belongs to me. You've been leaving in pain since the day he left you till today. He left a big scar in your heart, and I tried my best in every way to mend up that scar. But I don't know if the scar had any recovery anot. But I've really tried my best le. Forgive me if there isn't any sign of recovery. I always thought that you would never make this decision. Your decision really shocked me. Hope you'll walked out of the miserable life that you've been living now. It's not easy for you to forget him. You've tried many time, but not once succeed. Hope this time you'll really forget him.

I always envy him, really envy him. The time he spend with you is much more longer than me. You can spend many night at his place, spent the night at beach, be together for the wholeday. Although most of the time quarrel took place. But at least you can see him often. But I never once had the chance to experience that with you before. I know chances have to grab ourselves but somehow I guess chances aren't given to me. He didn't know how to treasure you. How I wish i could spend more time with you. But somehow it looks diffcult and impossible for it to happen.

6 more days to 1 year 6 months. Hope that during this 1 year 6 months, the time we spend together are meaningfull to you. Hope you're happier also. Although at times we maybe quarreling, and there's big quarrel before also. I'm sorry for letting all that to happen. But remember I once said before, I won't let history happen to you again. Whatever things I can give, I've already tried my very to give le. I know there's still many things you wanted. But I'll still continue to give it to you. Although you're stubborn at times, and always throwing you temper at me. But I tried my best not to quarrel with you. Sometimes even if it's not my fault I'll still take it that it's my fault. Cause I don't want any unhappiness to happen.Sometimes, I'm not feeling very well or in the mood to smile. But I'll still try fake a smile and pretend to be fine, but you're not in the mood, and is throwing tantrum, I also didn't say anything and quietly take in whatever tantrum you've thrown. Cause I know you're not in mood. I'll never let myself to vent anger on you cause I don't wish to hurt you in anyway. There's things I don't wish to let you is because I don't want you to be worry for me. I care alot alot for you.

Lastly, I really hope you've enjoyed yourself for this past 1 year 5 months with me. If I really make you angry or sad, hope you'll forgive me. I'm still trying my best to open up your heart. Don't wish to see you keeping things inside you. I love you. Shall end here. Muacks

Signing off.
NaughtyBoy (:
17:54pm
19.05.09

Competition !.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Omg, competition is just around he corner. We're going to have intensive training for 5 days! Wonder how it's going to be like man! It'll sure be very tough. Omg! Next week will be meeting her lesser. But I really don't want. But have no choice. This week lesson mostly is important, so can't skip. Sorry, will try to accompany you more. This month I think I'll really flunk one of subject. Omg, I don't know what to do either. There's still one more competiton for me after this one. Means more chances to get injure. But don't worry, I'll be fine. So don't need to worry for me. I'll look after myself.

Suddenly, I feel that we seems to be drifting further, don't know why. Is it that I'm thinking too much or, somethings is wrong? 5 months to 2 year. Our road till now is still very diffcult to walk, we still walked through already. Just now I saw someone while I was walking towards Bedok interchange. A someone I never really want to see, cause it reminds me of something. It's been a long time since I last saw that person, he's attached I think. And I don't know if he recognise me anot, but I surely do recognise him. Cause he's the one who make her suffer so much and hurt her so much. I really hate him, feel like wacking him. LOL. But something I'm not able to solve it using fist. Cause what's done had been done. Wacking him, doesn't cure her heart, doesn't make her life live better.

Nevermind about that. Shall end here I think. Nothing much to blog too. Miss you loads. I love you, take care of yourself. Silly you.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:08pm
17.05.09

. . ..

Friday, May 15, 2009

Hmm, I miss you so much. Every week see you two time and each time won't be longer than 5hours. When will we be able to see each other longer and more? I really miss you alot alot. Though we just met today. But I still miss you loads. I want to see you more, want to meet you on weekend. But I dare not ask. Cause you'll always reject it as you don't want anything to happen. I accept it. For I don't want anything to happen either. Sorry about today. I irritate you again and again.

I really don't want to let you go home, but I know it's impossible. Everytime we say goodbye, I'll feel really sad, cause I don't know when we'll meet again. I don't know how long we'll remain like this. I really hope that it'll be over soon. I want to see you more. Maybe not everyday, but at least longer. I never really had dinner with you before, never really spend the night with you before.

There's so much so much things I want to tell you, but I don't have the chance to do that. As alot of feeling deep inside me, but I don't know how to tell you. Cause don't want to increase your stress and stuff. I love you and I miss you. Shall end here le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
16:56pm
15.05.09

Omg Larhs..

Friday, May 8, 2009

7 hours ago, went to take my phone. Wahahas. Samsung F480. Cause currently my htc had traded in for the same model as mine, but it's pink for dear. Hahas. And I got myself the same phone too. After that went for lion dance. Lol. Tiring larhs. Omg, and it ended like around 11pm? Friend sent me to Paya Lebah( Don't know how spell) MRT. And I'm here blogging le.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
01:02am
07.05.09

Stress Larhs !.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Sians, Next Monday Will Be My Individual Presentation. But Then, I Simply Don't Know How To Do Larhs, Fcuk Sia. This Term Sure Flunk One Of My Main Module. Nabei. Si Bei Stress La. I Don't Know Why, Suddenly Don't Feel Like Going School. School Seems To Be A Stranger To Me. I Really Don't Have The Mood La. Really Very Very Stress Larhs, Fcuked Up Larhs.

So Many Things Coming At One Time, Omg Larhs, Competiton, Projects And More Projects. Alamak. I Just Feel Like Stopping Now, And Do Nothings. But Fcuk, I Can't. I Got Alot Of Things Need To Solve And Do Larhs. I Need This Cert In Order To Get A Better Income Job. I Need To Plan For My Future. Didn't Really Let Girl Know. Just Bought A Phone For Her, Trade-d In My Phone Just To Get That Phone, Getting Myself The Same Phone On Fridays, Thus My Allowance Is Being Used Up Le. Don't Know How I'm Going To Survive For The Next 3 Weeks.

Nevermind Bahr? Still Have Some Money With Me. So Should Be Able To Survive. Hahas. So Many Things To Do Larhs. Need To Save Alot Alot Of Money For Our Future. Although I'm Not Rich Or Wealthy, But At Least I Can Let My Dear Have What She Want, Eat What She Want. Also Won't Let Her Starve. Still Can Maintain My Things And Her Things With My Allowance. It's The Best I Can Do Le. Not That She Always Want Things, Is Cause I Don't Want Her To Starve Herself. So I'll Try To Pay Her Things For Her, So She Got Money Use, But Some Is She Pay La. Hahas.

Life Is Just So Peaceful And Simple For Us. Hahas. Muack Love You Larhs!

Signing Off,
N.Boy (:
06.05.09
21:53pm

So Tired !.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Today is simply a tiring day for me ! OMG Larhs ! Today alot fo walking plus the stupid weather, but lucky it rains during mid-night. Thus it's still not that hot as compared to perious days. Have been thinking about alot alot of things this few days, don't know how explain. What the time is ripe I'll say bahr.

Sians, don't know what to blog le eh. Shall end here bahr? Going rest le. Very tired ! Love you loads. Muack !

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
03.05.09
23:41pm