Labels: Tell me it's not a dream

Hmm, omg. I'm so bored la. Tomorrow chu shi again. But this time is helping other people de. So sians. I guess it's yew keng again. Gosh. What a day. I still fcuking fail my pract 5. Nabei sia. Going for another one on wednesday. Damn stupid larhs. Like so WTH los. KNS. ARGH !

What a day sia. Omg. Lucky tomorrow got chu shi, if not I don't know how to spend the day again. Sians. Going for check up this coming thursday. Hahas. Sians. Then this friday to sunday must go on vegetarian again. Sians.

Somehow or another, I'm slowly used to being single le. Hahas. Though complain almost everyday. But at least I'm very free larhs. Really very very free. Want go where jiu go where. Hahas. But really boring larhs. (: I don't know what to post le. Shall post next time. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:10pm
28.09.09

Omg, chu shi today. Fcuking tired. I'm up for all the performance. Sians larhs. Damn tired los. Went to sleep just now, but still very tired. Hais. Going back bedok later, cause tomorrow got bike lesson. Sians. Don't realy know what to post le.

Hmm, this few days been busy with lion dance. Lol. To busy to even think of other things. Hahas. Maybe it's a good things bahr. But whatever it is. Won't be able to chu shi from next on le. Hahas. Sorry guys, jiayou bahr. Wahahas. I'll chu if I can can. (:

Hope tomorrow bike lesson can pass. Hais. Been failing los. Nabei. Sians sia. Guess going to eat later. Didn't eat for the entire day. Only drink nia. Hahas. Somehow I realise, being a head man isn't so easy. OMG. Today help kor kor organise things for chu shi isn't fun at all. Lol. So many things need to take care of. Hahas.

Guess, I shall end here le. (: Take care bahr (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
18:15pm
27.09.09

虽然我寂寞，但是没有办法，路还是要走的。日子还是要过的，时间不会因为我寂寞而停下来。我现在的日子，似乎都是一样的。日子一天一天过，我就一天一天的更寂寞。真的真的好想有个人来陪。但是会有可能吗？我每天多在想这个问题，但始终多没有答案。

Hmm, so boring now. Hais. I know I shouldn't be thinking of having a girlfriend now, but the thought just seems to appear now and then. Hais. I really don't know what to do. Will just take steps by steps bahr. Hahas. That's all I can do bahr?

Next few days should be a busy day bahr? Cause of chu shi and stuffs. Hais. Never mind bahr? Shall end here. Have no idea what to blog on le. Mood seems to be really down. LOL.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:02pm
24.09.09

也许我太寂寞了，所以才会想找另一个她吧？不是说找就可以找的，我想先在还不是时候找的。因为，很快我就要忙了。慢慢来吧，时间多的是。

Hmm, no idea who's spamming my blog. Lol. People get your facts right before saying anything please. My ex's baby isn't mine, it's her boyfriend. Please, if you've read her blog then you should know, don't know anyhow sprout nonsense when you don't know anything. Webcaming with my ex is not to see her, is to see my rabbit. Lol. Cause I very long didn't see them already. Just didn't tell her only. Lol. Thanks for those COMMENTS. I never once say I'm good looking, and whether I'm good looking or what, it doesn't even concern you. I also didn't say I'm going for another girl now. I only mention, how I wish. It's just a sudden thought, is thinking wrong? I also haven't really go find. Lol. Sometime please think before you say anything. It's my life, I don't need you to comment on anything. Whether I'm finding one girlfriend now or not, it's also doesn't concern you. It's all my choice whether I want to find or not. You don't have to care so much. Thanks, passerby and Keli for you KIND COMMENT. I know what I'm doing. So if you don't mind, just leave my tagboard alone. Save your COMMENTS on other people. For you don't have any right to judge on me or my life. (:

Hmm, I still failed my pract 5, fucking hell. KNS sia. Lol. Tomorrow going for another one. Hope this time really can pass eh. Don't want to waste so much time already. Sians. Really want to pass all my pract before I go for holiday. Hahas. (: This week jiu start chu shi le. Sians man. Thursday and saturday de chu shi is fine, just only sunday. Sure very messy de. Lol. Stupid sia. Chu so big. Hahas. Cause it's PK time. Wahahas. Everything must be done prefectly, nothing must go wrong de. (: Jiayou bahr.

Don't know where will my attachment be. Hope the pay is good, cause need to pay for my bike. Sians. Hope can faster chu bike los. Hahas. Sians. Got bike jiu fun liao. Can go anywhere easier. Just only very ma fan nia. Hahas. Hmm, going back aunty house soon. (: Shall end here le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:27pm
22.09.09

Suddenly, I so wish to have another 'HER'. Don't know why suddenly have this thought. Lol. Yesterday went to gan mei birthday, don't know if she's happy or not. Hope she is los. Went to west coast to celebrate, the wind is damn 'BIG' larhs. Just realise sea view is really nice. Hahas. (: So peace and so relaxing.

If I've another 'HER', I'll sure bring her there or somewhere where there's sea. Hahas. Just to sit down there and relax. I guess the feeling is really nice. I know I can't be thinking of having another girlfriend. Cause it's not really easy to find one. It really think take to find someone who really love you, truly. Hahas.

Going back aunty house soon, cause tomorrow got pract 5. Really hope can pass it once and for all. Hais. Stupid sia. Lol. So tired now. Later I sure very easily fall asleep de. Hahas. Hmm, guess shall end here le. Not much to post also.

Labels: Glad that you're finally let go le (:

I guess I shouldn't be thinking too much now. Before I go into another relationship, I must first change some of my character. Like my attitude, the way I treat things, the way I talk. Hahas. If all that are being improved, then maybe the next relationship will be better. Hahas.

Hmm. I wonder I still can hang on for how long. Lol. It's really so boring being single. The feeling of being alone isn't great at all. I just don't like this way. Hais. But I also don't know what I can do. Sians.

So sians man. Going sintua soon, then after that to friend BBQ. Maybe will be home tomorrow. Will see how bahr. I don't know what to post le. Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:40pm
19.09.09

Hmm, from today on, I'll really start to live a new life le. Hahas. Shall not think of getting her back le. Somehow I guess we're really over. (: But it's okay. Memories will be kept, while life still goes on. Shall not hold on to it anymore.

I shall keep on moving forward, and hope new things will come to me. (: Or maybe I'll find someone better in the near future ? Hahas. Just hope so bahr? But shall not really go look for it. Just want to stay this way first. I want to enjoy to the max first. Hahas. If there's fate, I'll find that someone soon. Hahas. But just see how bahr?

Hahas. There's more things for me to think about, such as my bike licence, my lion dance thingy. Hahas. Talk dao lion dance, jiu sians. Next week on jiu start chu shi le. Omg larhs. And it's not only one day eh. It'll stretch from next week maybe till chinese new year. OMG. At the same time, training will resume soon, for we must start to prepare for next year competition, both lion and dragon. Hahas. Hope next year, we can do better for both competition.

So sians. I guess I shall end here le. (: Goodbye to you, I guess we'll just remain this way bahr. Hahas.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:41pm
18.09.09

突然之间，我感到非常非常寂寞。不知道为什么会这样，我想我还是不习惯一个人生活。但是我还能做什么呢？她不可能再回到身边了。我觉得，现在的她比以前快乐多了。这对她来说可能是件好事吧？我还有机会与到另一个她吗？与到了，结局会不回和现在一样呢？我真的不晓得，也不想去想那么多，只想好好的过一个人的生活。要是有缘的话，另一个她会自己出现的。

Will there be this chance? I'm really wondering. Don't intend to think so much, just let nature take it's course. Went to cut my hair and also dye my hair. Intend to make a change. Hahas. I guess it's really time to move on already, I can't be staying on the same spot for so long. When others are moving on, I'm still staying on the same spot. It's just time for me to move on and look ahead. (:

Yes, I may feel lonely at times. But it's just part of being single. Hahas. But I guess it's okay de. Hahas. I'll just have to be use to it de. Maybe I'm slowly getting over her. I don't know if it's good or bad. I'm just no sure. But well, just have to look ahead and not to look back anymore.

Looking back doesn't mean things will be better, maybe if I've look forward, there maybe someone better for me? Hahas. Who knows what god plans for us. Staying on at the same point, won't let you see new things, but only by moving on, then new things will come to you. (: I guess it's just what I should do bahr? Hahas. Shall end le. Headache again. And once again, goodbye 010709. It's a nice memories. I'll keep it de. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:46pm
17.09.09

Labels: It's time to move on.

Today is the second week since she left, but to me it's like more than two weeks. The time pass so slowly. Hais. And I getting more and more bored. I guess I'm still not used to being alone, I just simple hate being alone. But there's nothing I can do to change the fact that I'm single now. Though I really want to have another her, but I just don't have the mood to find another her. Hais.

So sians. I'm so bored now. Hais. Who can pei me go out or slack outside? SO FCUKING BORED! She've just recover from her fever. Lol. Don't know why she suddenly fever. Aiyo. Must drink plenty of water okay! Aiyo, you arh.

Hmm, I guess it's still not the right time to find another her yet. Slowly bahr, still trying to find out whether single is better or not. Hahas. (: Maybe I should really take a long break first. Haven't been resting since year 2007. So maybe now it's just the right time for me take a really long break.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:58am
15.09.09

Labels: Naughtyboy Will Be Fine (:

Hmm, being alone is really something very lonely. This one week plus I've been alone, and the feeling is just not good. Hais. How how? How long more can I bear with it? OMG larhs. I'll have to try. No matter what I must not give up. Hais. And damn the headache! It's back again! Irritating larhs! Argh! So bored now, going sleep soon. Later at night going to temple to eat. Sians. Nothing much to post le. Shall end here bahr.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
13:55pm
14.09.09

Argh! Headache is a damn irritating thing los! Nabei. How I wish I can bang wall now larhs! Buay tahan! Hais.

Hmm, somehow or another. I really don't know what to do. Hais. I'm still trying my best to learn how to live without you. Been trying to do alot of stupid things just to not think about you. Hmm, but it's really hard.

你还好吗？
自从你不在我身边以后，我有很多东西需要去适应。
真的很不好受。
但是我知道，会有那么一天，我会做到的。

Hmm. The love for you is always there. But I know I must keep it away le. For there's no way you'll be back to my side. Don't worry, I'll be fine just alone (: So whatever it is, I'll never let myself be so moody de. (:

NaughtyBoy will never give up on life de. Wahahas. I'll be strong de. (: For life still goes even without you. Hehes. 010709 shall stay as memories from now on. (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:54pm
13.09.09

Labels: Memoriesiswhatitwillbe

Hmm, it's been days since you left me. Somehow I must admit, I'm still not used being alone. I still hope you're here, right here beside me. But I know this day won't come anymore.

你现在快乐吗？
有没有好好照顾自己？
你走了，真的走了。
我们不可能和以前一样了。

I want you back, but I dare not ask. I know the answer will be a 'NO'. Hmm, but it's okay I understand. I do hope that you'll be happy, happy with whatever things you do. Life that you're leading now, must be happier than when we're together. I've learn my mistakes for being over-concern and over protective, and I'll not keep things again. For it'll only be hurt more when then truth is being told. I always tell other this, but yet I'm not doing it. Hais. I'm sorry.

Stay happy, and you're PIG face is loved by NaughtyBoy (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
14:40pm
12.09.09

Life is just like a school. Everyday we're like attending lesson, as we'll learn thing every now and then, and it comes in different different forms. Only when you've learnt your lessons, then you'll proceed to the next lessons. Hahas.

Hmm, somehow. I do feel lonely. Being single can be carefree, can do whatever we want. No one is there to control you or nag at you and stuff. Do at times, loneliness is what I feel. Maybe I'm used to having someone in my life already. Hahas. I'll get use to being alone sooner or later.

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
你陪著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

Those hurt that I've cause can never be heal. I do hope there'll be another guy better than me, can heal those wound. Maybe since the day you say you wanted to leave, it also mark the last day of our story. There's no more turning back I guess? The ring I'll keep safe (: I'll still put it on either on my hand or my necklace. When the day where we no longer can be together, the ring will be forever be hang on the necklace and never be worn again.

I don't know what really happen between you and your friends. But I guess you're in deep thoughts again. Whatever is it, I'll always be here for you. Though we can't be couple but we can still be friends. Let me be the last one that you'll think of whenever you help (: I'm always here (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
13:34pm
11.09.09

Hmm, so bored now. Going for bike revision soon. Hahas. Tomorrow having pract 5, hope can pass it smoothly. Hmm. Life is just so, OMG larhs. Hahas. Have no idea what to say. But I guess it's a goodbye to 010709. I just feel that somehow everything won't be the same anymore. 010709 will just become a memories. (: And a memories it shall be. For the time being, I don't wish to think about anything. Just want to concentrate on my bike licence. After I get the licence, then decide what to do next bahr.

Hahas. So for the time being, I'll just take a long long break first. Will see if single is better or not. Hahas. Hmm, yeah. Goodbye 010709, and goodbye to you. For the past 2 months, being with you is a happy thing I can say? Hahas. But on the other hand, sorry for hurting so badly. I guess the hurt will never be heal. Hmm, whatever it is. Really must take care of yourself. (: Life without me, should be happier bahr? Hahas. For you've more freedom ma. (:

Well, whatever bahr. Life goes on. Hahas. What's ahead of is more important (: So shall end here le. Shall post again maybe later after my revision bahr. Oh ya, forget something, I've no more school le! Woohoo! Holiday now! (:

Signing off,
N.boy (:
13:25pm
10.09.09

Well, everything have come to an end. It's really an end. No more 010709. It'll be gone maybe forever. Hmm, take care of yourself (: Life still have to go on w/o you. So ya, I'll take care of myself also de.

Hahas. So now it's single life le. Hahas. Somehow I've to be use to this kind of life already, for it'll be a very very long single life I guess? Hahas.

We'll see what is being plan for us by god. Hahas. I'll just look forward and continue walking. Hahas. I hope you'll find someone better than me (: Hahas.

Hmm, shall post again later (:


Signing off.
N.Boy (:
15:04pm
090909

Hmm, sians. Somehow this few days I'm like so bored. Didn't really go anywhere. This few days was at Taka seeing competition. Hahas. Then jiu nothing much le los. Next few days will be going for Circuit revisions as friday will be having pract 5. Sians. I only scare at the Figure 8 only. Sians. Damn hard la! But hope can pass la. (:

Hmm, how are you? It's been days since I last saw you. Hais. Do you still have feelings for me? I really want to know. Hais. Hmm, this few days I've been thinking alot alot of things. But I still don't know what to do. Maybe we'll wait till 011009 then decide bahr.

I miss you loads. But I'm trying to find things do in order not to miss you so much not to think of you so much. It's really so xin ku to do that. Hais.

You seems to be further and further away from me. Will you still come back to me again? Hais. I really don't know. I just want you back so much. But where are you? Hais.

The love for you is still so strong. But will it bring you back to me again? Hais. I really don't know.

Signing off.
N.Boy ):
23:30pm
07.09.09

Labels: I just need you loads ):

Somehow or another, I feel so weird, really weird. Days without her beside me is really so weird. But I know I've to be used to it already. afeel that she'll be gone forever is becoming stronger and stronger. But whatever it is. Shall not really think about. Shall post again later at night (:

Will you be back to me again? Hahas. I'm still wondering.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
09:36am
020909

Labels: I'm missing you right now

It's 010909 means it's two months, it also means she's gone. Hais. Somehow she wanted both of us to think really careful. Whether we really need each other not, whether we'll change heart not. Lol. But somehow I know I nedd her loads, and my love for her won't change. But it's no use it now. Will prove it to her. One month later, which is 011009, we'll be deciding whether we should go back again, or should really let it go forever.

I really hurt her too much le. Whatever it is, I'm wrong. Hais. I'll be thinking of things to do, so to kill my time. Days without her by my side is really boring. My headache is back again. Fcuk! Somehow I feel like fainting already, but I shall finish this post 1st.

You're gone, but not forever yet. I do hope you'll be back to my side again. This month is a good time, For both of us to really think. And really decide if we should be back to each other side. Hahas. There's alot of things I must sort out.

But whatever bahr. Shall go rest le. Buais. (: & I love you still. Really miss you loads. Must take care of yourself, and don't always skip your meal. I'll be worry de. (: Love you loads still.

Signing off.
N.boy ):
23:14pm
010909

Labels: Day 1 since you left ):

Labels: Tell me it's not a dream

Hmm, omg. I'm so bored la. Tomorrow chu shi again. But this time is helping other people de. So sians. I guess it's yew keng again. Gosh. What a day. I still fcuking fail my pract 5. Nabei sia. Going for another one on wednesday. Damn stupid larhs. Like so WTH los. KNS. ARGH !

What a day sia. Omg. Lucky tomorrow got chu shi, if not I don't know how to spend the day again. Sians. Going for check up this coming thursday. Hahas. Sians. Then this friday to sunday must go on vegetarian again. Sians.

Somehow or another, I'm slowly used to being single le. Hahas. Though complain almost everyday. But at least I'm very free larhs. Really very very free. Want go where jiu go where. Hahas. But really boring larhs. (: I don't know what to post le. Shall post next time. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:10pm
28.09.09

Omg, chu shi today. Fcuking tired. I'm up for all the performance. Sians larhs. Damn tired los. Went to sleep just now, but still very tired. Hais. Going back bedok later, cause tomorrow got bike lesson. Sians. Don't realy know what to post le.

Hmm, this few days been busy with lion dance. Lol. To busy to even think of other things. Hahas. Maybe it's a good things bahr. But whatever it is. Won't be able to chu shi from next on le. Hahas. Sorry guys, jiayou bahr. Wahahas. I'll chu if I can can. (:

Hope tomorrow bike lesson can pass. Hais. Been failing los. Nabei. Sians sia. Guess going to eat later. Didn't eat for the entire day. Only drink nia. Hahas. Somehow I realise, being a head man isn't so easy. OMG. Today help kor kor organise things for chu shi isn't fun at all. Lol. So many things need to take care of. Hahas.

Guess, I shall end here le. (: Take care bahr (:

Signing off.
N.boy (:
18:15pm
27.09.09

虽然我寂寞，但是没有办法，路还是要走的。日子还是要过的，时间不会因为我寂寞而停下来。我现在的日子，似乎都是一样的。日子一天一天过，我就一天一天的更寂寞。真的真的好想有个人来陪。但是会有可能吗？我每天多在想这个问题，但始终多没有答案。

Hmm, so boring now. Hais. I know I shouldn't be thinking of having a girlfriend now, but the thought just seems to appear now and then. Hais. I really don't know what to do. Will just take steps by steps bahr. Hahas. That's all I can do bahr?

Next few days should be a busy day bahr? Cause of chu shi and stuffs. Hais. Never mind bahr? Shall end here. Have no idea what to blog on le. Mood seems to be really down. LOL.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:02pm
24.09.09

也许我太寂寞了，所以才会想找另一个她吧？不是说找就可以找的，我想先在还不是时候找的。因为，很快我就要忙了。慢慢来吧，时间多的是。

Hmm, no idea who's spamming my blog. Lol. People get your facts right before saying anything please. My ex's baby isn't mine, it's her boyfriend. Please, if you've read her blog then you should know, don't know anyhow sprout nonsense when you don't know anything. Webcaming with my ex is not to see her, is to see my rabbit. Lol. Cause I very long didn't see them already. Just didn't tell her only. Lol. Thanks for those COMMENTS. I never once say I'm good looking, and whether I'm good looking or what, it doesn't even concern you. I also didn't say I'm going for another girl now. I only mention, how I wish. It's just a sudden thought, is thinking wrong? I also haven't really go find. Lol. Sometime please think before you say anything. It's my life, I don't need you to comment on anything. Whether I'm finding one girlfriend now or not, it's also doesn't concern you. It's all my choice whether I want to find or not. You don't have to care so much. Thanks, passerby and Keli for you KIND COMMENT. I know what I'm doing. So if you don't mind, just leave my tagboard alone. Save your COMMENTS on other people. For you don't have any right to judge on me or my life. (:

Hmm, I still failed my pract 5, fucking hell. KNS sia. Lol. Tomorrow going for another one. Hope this time really can pass eh. Don't want to waste so much time already. Sians. Really want to pass all my pract before I go for holiday. Hahas. (: This week jiu start chu shi le. Sians man. Thursday and saturday de chu shi is fine, just only sunday. Sure very messy de. Lol. Stupid sia. Chu so big. Hahas. Cause it's PK time. Wahahas. Everything must be done prefectly, nothing must go wrong de. (: Jiayou bahr.

Don't know where will my attachment be. Hope the pay is good, cause need to pay for my bike. Sians. Hope can faster chu bike los. Hahas. Sians. Got bike jiu fun liao. Can go anywhere easier. Just only very ma fan nia. Hahas. Hmm, going back aunty house soon. (: Shall end here le.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:27pm
22.09.09

Suddenly, I so wish to have another 'HER'. Don't know why suddenly have this thought. Lol. Yesterday went to gan mei birthday, don't know if she's happy or not. Hope she is los. Went to west coast to celebrate, the wind is damn 'BIG' larhs. Just realise sea view is really nice. Hahas. (: So peace and so relaxing.

If I've another 'HER', I'll sure bring her there or somewhere where there's sea. Hahas. Just to sit down there and relax. I guess the feeling is really nice. I know I can't be thinking of having another girlfriend. Cause it's not really easy to find one. It really think take to find someone who really love you, truly. Hahas.

Going back aunty house soon, cause tomorrow got pract 5. Really hope can pass it once and for all. Hais. Stupid sia. Lol. So tired now. Later I sure very easily fall asleep de. Hahas. Hmm, guess shall end here le. Not much to post also.

Labels: Glad that you're finally let go le (:

I guess I shouldn't be thinking too much now. Before I go into another relationship, I must first change some of my character. Like my attitude, the way I treat things, the way I talk. Hahas. If all that are being improved, then maybe the next relationship will be better. Hahas.

Hmm. I wonder I still can hang on for how long. Lol. It's really so boring being single. The feeling of being alone isn't great at all. I just don't like this way. Hais. But I also don't know what I can do. Sians.

So sians man. Going sintua soon, then after that to friend BBQ. Maybe will be home tomorrow. Will see how bahr. I don't know what to post le. Shall end here le. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:40pm
19.09.09

Hmm, from today on, I'll really start to live a new life le. Hahas. Shall not think of getting her back le. Somehow I guess we're really over. (: But it's okay. Memories will be kept, while life still goes on. Shall not hold on to it anymore.

I shall keep on moving forward, and hope new things will come to me. (: Or maybe I'll find someone better in the near future ? Hahas. Just hope so bahr? But shall not really go look for it. Just want to stay this way first. I want to enjoy to the max first. Hahas. If there's fate, I'll find that someone soon. Hahas. But just see how bahr?

Hahas. There's more things for me to think about, such as my bike licence, my lion dance thingy. Hahas. Talk dao lion dance, jiu sians. Next week on jiu start chu shi le. Omg larhs. And it's not only one day eh. It'll stretch from next week maybe till chinese new year. OMG. At the same time, training will resume soon, for we must start to prepare for next year competition, both lion and dragon. Hahas. Hope next year, we can do better for both competition.

So sians. I guess I shall end here le. (: Goodbye to you, I guess we'll just remain this way bahr. Hahas.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
17:41pm
18.09.09

突然之间，我感到非常非常寂寞。不知道为什么会这样，我想我还是不习惯一个人生活。但是我还能做什么呢？她不可能再回到身边了。我觉得，现在的她比以前快乐多了。这对她来说可能是件好事吧？我还有机会与到另一个她吗？与到了，结局会不回和现在一样呢？我真的不晓得，也不想去想那么多，只想好好的过一个人的生活。要是有缘的话，另一个她会自己出现的。

Will there be this chance? I'm really wondering. Don't intend to think so much, just let nature take it's course. Went to cut my hair and also dye my hair. Intend to make a change. Hahas. I guess it's really time to move on already, I can't be staying on the same spot for so long. When others are moving on, I'm still staying on the same spot. It's just time for me to move on and look ahead. (:

Yes, I may feel lonely at times. But it's just part of being single. Hahas. But I guess it's okay de. Hahas. I'll just have to be use to it de. Maybe I'm slowly getting over her. I don't know if it's good or bad. I'm just no sure. But well, just have to look ahead and not to look back anymore.

Looking back doesn't mean things will be better, maybe if I've look forward, there maybe someone better for me? Hahas. Who knows what god plans for us. Staying on at the same point, won't let you see new things, but only by moving on, then new things will come to you. (: I guess it's just what I should do bahr? Hahas. Shall end le. Headache again. And once again, goodbye 010709. It's a nice memories. I'll keep it de. (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:46pm
17.09.09

Labels: It's time to move on.

Today is the second week since she left, but to me it's like more than two weeks. The time pass so slowly. Hais. And I getting more and more bored. I guess I'm still not used to being alone, I just simple hate being alone. But there's nothing I can do to change the fact that I'm single now. Though I really want to have another her, but I just don't have the mood to find another her. Hais.

So sians. I'm so bored now. Hais. Who can pei me go out or slack outside? SO FCUKING BORED! She've just recover from her fever. Lol. Don't know why she suddenly fever. Aiyo. Must drink plenty of water okay! Aiyo, you arh.

Hmm, I guess it's still not the right time to find another her yet. Slowly bahr, still trying to find out whether single is better or not. Hahas. (: Maybe I should really take a long break first. Haven't been resting since year 2007. So maybe now it's just the right time for me take a really long break.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:58am
15.09.09

Labels: Naughtyboy Will Be Fine (:

Hmm, being alone is really something very lonely. This one week plus I've been alone, and the feeling is just not good. Hais. How how? How long more can I bear with it? OMG larhs. I'll have to try. No matter what I must not give up. Hais. And damn the headache! It's back again! Irritating larhs! Argh! So bored now, going sleep soon. Later at night going to temple to eat. Sians. Nothing much to post le. Shall end here bahr.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
13:55pm
14.09.09

Argh! Headache is a damn irritating thing los! Nabei. How I wish I can bang wall now larhs! Buay tahan! Hais.

Hmm, somehow or another. I really don't know what to do. Hais. I'm still trying my best to learn how to live without you. Been trying to do alot of stupid things just to not think about you. Hmm, but it's really hard.

你还好吗？
自从你不在我身边以后，我有很多东西需要去适应。
真的很不好受。
但是我知道，会有那么一天，我会做到的。

Hmm. The love for you is always there. But I know I must keep it away le. For there's no way you'll be back to my side. Don't worry, I'll be fine just alone (: So whatever it is, I'll never let myself be so moody de. (:

NaughtyBoy will never give up on life de. Wahahas. I'll be strong de. (: For life still goes even without you. Hehes. 010709 shall stay as memories from now on. (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
21:54pm
13.09.09

Labels: Memoriesiswhatitwillbe

Hmm, it's been days since you left me. Somehow I must admit, I'm still not used being alone. I still hope you're here, right here beside me. But I know this day won't come anymore.

你现在快乐吗？
有没有好好照顾自己？
你走了，真的走了。
我们不可能和以前一样了。

I want you back, but I dare not ask. I know the answer will be a 'NO'. Hmm, but it's okay I understand. I do hope that you'll be happy, happy with whatever things you do. Life that you're leading now, must be happier than when we're together. I've learn my mistakes for being over-concern and over protective, and I'll not keep things again. For it'll only be hurt more when then truth is being told. I always tell other this, but yet I'm not doing it. Hais. I'm sorry.

Stay happy, and you're PIG face is loved by NaughtyBoy (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
14:40pm
12.09.09

Life is just like a school. Everyday we're like attending lesson, as we'll learn thing every now and then, and it comes in different different forms. Only when you've learnt your lessons, then you'll proceed to the next lessons. Hahas.

Hmm, somehow. I do feel lonely. Being single can be carefree, can do whatever we want. No one is there to control you or nag at you and stuff. Do at times, loneliness is what I feel. Maybe I'm used to having someone in my life already. Hahas. I'll get use to being alone sooner or later.

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
你陪著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

Those hurt that I've cause can never be heal. I do hope there'll be another guy better than me, can heal those wound. Maybe since the day you say you wanted to leave, it also mark the last day of our story. There's no more turning back I guess? The ring I'll keep safe (: I'll still put it on either on my hand or my necklace. When the day where we no longer can be together, the ring will be forever be hang on the necklace and never be worn again.

I don't know what really happen between you and your friends. But I guess you're in deep thoughts again. Whatever is it, I'll always be here for you. Though we can't be couple but we can still be friends. Let me be the last one that you'll think of whenever you help (: I'm always here (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
13:34pm
11.09.09

Hmm, so bored now. Going for bike revision soon. Hahas. Tomorrow having pract 5, hope can pass it smoothly. Hmm. Life is just so, OMG larhs. Hahas. Have no idea what to say. But I guess it's a goodbye to 010709. I just feel that somehow everything won't be the same anymore. 010709 will just become a memories. (: And a memories it shall be. For the time being, I don't wish to think about anything. Just want to concentrate on my bike licence. After I get the licence, then decide what to do next bahr.

Hahas. So for the time being, I'll just take a long long break first. Will see if single is better or not. Hahas. Hmm, yeah. Goodbye 010709, and goodbye to you. For the past 2 months, being with you is a happy thing I can say? Hahas. But on the other hand, sorry for hurting so badly. I guess the hurt will never be heal. Hmm, whatever it is. Really must take care of yourself. (: Life without me, should be happier bahr? Hahas. For you've more freedom ma. (:

Well, whatever bahr. Life goes on. Hahas. What's ahead of is more important (: So shall end here le. Shall post again maybe later after my revision bahr. Oh ya, forget something, I've no more school le! Woohoo! Holiday now! (:

Signing off,
N.boy (:
13:25pm
10.09.09

Well, everything have come to an end. It's really an end. No more 010709. It'll be gone maybe forever. Hmm, take care of yourself (: Life still have to go on w/o you. So ya, I'll take care of myself also de.

Hahas. So now it's single life le. Hahas. Somehow I've to be use to this kind of life already, for it'll be a very very long single life I guess? Hahas.

We'll see what is being plan for us by god. Hahas. I'll just look forward and continue walking. Hahas. I hope you'll find someone better than me (: Hahas.

Hmm, shall post again later (:


Signing off.
N.Boy (:
15:04pm
090909

Hmm, sians. Somehow this few days I'm like so bored. Didn't really go anywhere. This few days was at Taka seeing competition. Hahas. Then jiu nothing much le los. Next few days will be going for Circuit revisions as friday will be having pract 5. Sians. I only scare at the Figure 8 only. Sians. Damn hard la! But hope can pass la. (:

Hmm, how are you? It's been days since I last saw you. Hais. Do you still have feelings for me? I really want to know. Hais. Hmm, this few days I've been thinking alot alot of things. But I still don't know what to do. Maybe we'll wait till 011009 then decide bahr.

I miss you loads. But I'm trying to find things do in order not to miss you so much not to think of you so much. It's really so xin ku to do that. Hais.

You seems to be further and further away from me. Will you still come back to me again? Hais. I really don't know. I just want you back so much. But where are you? Hais.

The love for you is still so strong. But will it bring you back to me again? Hais. I really don't know.

Signing off.
N.Boy ):
23:30pm
07.09.09

Labels: I just need you loads ):

Somehow or another, I feel so weird, really weird. Days without her beside me is really so weird. But I know I've to be used to it already. afeel that she'll be gone forever is becoming stronger and stronger. But whatever it is. Shall not really think about. Shall post again later at night (:

Will you be back to me again? Hahas. I'm still wondering.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
09:36am
020909

Labels: I'm missing you right now

It's 010909 means it's two months, it also means she's gone. Hais. Somehow she wanted both of us to think really careful. Whether we really need each other not, whether we'll change heart not. Lol. But somehow I know I nedd her loads, and my love for her won't change. But it's no use it now. Will prove it to her. One month later, which is 011009, we'll be deciding whether we should go back again, or should really let it go forever.

I really hurt her too much le. Whatever it is, I'm wrong. Hais. I'll be thinking of things to do, so to kill my time. Days without her by my side is really boring. My headache is back again. Fcuk! Somehow I feel like fainting already, but I shall finish this post 1st.

You're gone, but not forever yet. I do hope you'll be back to my side again. This month is a good time, For both of us to really think. And really decide if we should be back to each other side. Hahas. There's alot of things I must sort out.

But whatever bahr. Shall go rest le. Buais. (: & I love you still. Really miss you loads. Must take care of yourself, and don't always skip your meal. I'll be worry de. (: Love you loads still.

Signing off.
N.boy ):
23:14pm
010909

Labels: Day 1 since you left ):