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I Love You.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Back from training again, sians. Still got 3 more days before the weekends. Tired tired. I feel so stupid la, didn't manage to perform well I guess. Tomorrow another day of training.

Sians. Tomorrow might not meeting her, as she's going shopping with her friends. Then thursday I've my bike practical. Thus only friday then can meet, I think. Today almost quarrel with her, sorry sorry. Cause I'm so du lan with someone larhs. Hais. Damn du lan los. Hais, cause I worry something will happen to her los. Hope she'll listen to me bahr. Hais. Went to collect her BIG BIG BIG STUPID TEETH for her, waited her around an hour like that, then went up her house. But so sad larh, she didn't even take a look at it. Just leave it there only. The first thing she do was to use her com. Hais, really so sad eh. I thought she'll take it out and see. But she didn't, only when I open it up then she see. Hais. Like it's nothing like that. Hais. Nevermind bahr. I really thought she'll be delighted to see it eh, but I see no sign of happiness on her face. Then I was like, er, okay los. Hais. So sad, and disappointed. Maybe I'm not very important bahr, thus the things I gave or bought for her were nothing either. I really hope at least the first thing to do when she reach home is just to take a look. Really just a look only. But, never mind it'd past already. Silly her. I love her still larhs.

I guess next time, if I buy her things again, I've to open it for her, then she'll really go see. If not it'll just be lying there for a very long time. Hais. Must really get use to not meeting her often le, if not when my school reopen jiu jia lat eh. I really miss her eh. Sians. But don't know if she'll be missing me also anot. Nevermind bahr. I really don't want see her sad or got anything happen. Sians. I don't know why I'm always worrying for her. Maybe she's young bahr? Sorry eh, I know I'm emo, or showing you a sad face. But I don't want you to leave me, that's for sure. I really want to keep you by my side always eh, but I know I can't do that. I don't want to stop u or control you. But I hope you know what you should do and what you shouldn't do. Hmm, guess I shall end her. I love you dear. (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
23:58pm
30.06.09
Bored !.

Argh, I'm So Bored Now! Got My ETP Project To Do, Sians. School Reopening In 2 Weeks Time, So Is My Competition. Hahas. Sians. Just Hope Everything Go On Smoothly, My Competition, My Project, And Us. I Miss Her Larhs. Must Get Used To Not Meeting Her Everyday, Cause When My School Start, We Can Only Meet For A Few Days Only.

Hmm, I Really Don't Wish To Let Her Go, I Just Want To Keep Her By My Side. Later Going Get Something For Her, As The Stocks Had Arrived. Hahas. Hope She'll Be Happy To See That Things. Hahas. It's Not Easy To Find That Thing, As Not All Shop Sell It. Hahas. Though I Only Spend A Few Hours To Find Only Larhs. Lol.

Tomorrow Will Be The Day, Where We're Really Going To Be Together. Hahas. This One Week, I'm Really Happy When I'm With Her. Hahas. I Can Really Feel The Love From Her. Although I Don't Know If We Could Last For How Long, But I'll Try To Last Really Long With Her, Don't Want And Don't Wish Anything To Happen.

Shall End Here. C.Suching Is Loved by NaughtyBoy (:

Signing Off.
N.Boy (:
13:04pm
30.06.09
Have Faith In Me (:.
Monday, June 29, 2009

Backed from training. So tiring. Sians. Didn't manage to train the whole set, but at least kor kor improved my movement all that. Legs are tired. Sians.

My silly you. Yes, maybe people are asking me not to go serious for this relationship. But I never go into a relationshipd just for fun. I treat every relationship seriously. Silly you. Things will just go smoothly as it is. Okay? Have faith in yourself, and have faith in me. I'll do my very best to last long with you, and we'll prove all of them wrong. Hahas. Most important thing is that we've to carry on moving. Whatever problems come, or difficulties there will be, I'll always be here with you to solve the problems, and overcome the difficulties. Won't let you face them alone. Hahas. Love you.

Maybe it's not you that's not good, it's me? But I'll try to be a good boyfriend. And from the past relationship, I realise promises are always lie. Lol. Thus I don't want to promise you anything, nor want you to promise anything. Let's use action to prove it. Use our heart to do it. Hahas. I want you and only you. 010709 is coming very soon. Hahas.Many people ask me why choose that date. Hahas. Cause I think that date is cool eh, it's the begining of the 2nd half of year 2009, means a new begining is right ahead of us. I want to start everything fresh and new. Hahas. Thus I choose that date. Whatever things that people comment, if it's good, we'll accept it, if it's bad we'll just say thanks. I won't let anything to affect our current relation. I love you, and I miss you. Hahas.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
23:51pm
29.06.09
Maybe It's All My Fault.

Hahas, looks like everyone know already. Thus I shall not hide anymore. I'm in love with Suching. Hmm, I guess God is still giving me the chance to fall in love. But if you people thinks that I just want to F&T her, or I'm just playing with her. Then I'll proved you guys wrong, I never will do this kind of things. I guess 'she' is hating me now. If you all agree with her, and I'm not true to her, I'm wrong too. Then so be it bahr? Just take it that I'm the one who cause everything to end up in this situation. I'm wrong to love 'her', I'm wrong to lose 'her' and I'm wrong to love another girl. Maybe I'm just not fit to fall in love with anyone bahr? All I can say I'm true in every relationship. But when it's time for me to let go, I can't possibly keep it. Cause it'll never be mine again. Thus I've chose to let go. But I didn't know letting go of it is wrong too. Finding another girl is also wrong too. Let it all be my fault. I'm sorry.

Hmm, this past one week with you really make me feel loved. Hahas. We joke around, li siao around. Hahas. So fun larhs. Hahas. And I can confirm something! C.Suching is a BIG BIG PIG larhs! Can always sleep de sia. Lol. Hahas. But I love her still larhs. I really hope nothing will affect our relation and decision. I won't regret my decision. I'll accept whatever things that's going to happen. As long as I've her. I'm happy already.

Hahas. So sians. I'm having training later again, so tired. Hais. But no choice next monday is my first performance. Lol. But do it right! I hope I can really do well. Have been training for so long at least also must be a 8pointer and above. Aiming at 8.7 and above. Hope I can do it. Don't wish to let anyone in Hequan down. Including myself. But most importantly is kor kor. He've put in so much heart in this competition, thus I must show him the result he want. I'll do my best. Wahahas, Jiayou. I can do it de.

Hahas. Lastly, I miss you larhs. Hahas. I hope you'll be the last owner of my jacket. Hahas. Love you. Everything will be fine de. Trust me. Hahas. I'll walk with you till the end. Muacks.

C.Suching & Wee Liat.
Stupid Teeth & NaughtyBoy.

Signing Off.
N.Boy (:
15:38pm
29.06.09
Hahas (:.
Sunday, June 28, 2009

I guess very soon, everyone will know who is she already. Sorry, I know I've been thinking too much. I know I asked alot of what if. I just want to know what will your reaction and feeling be when it really happen Just a small hint, the date will be 010709. From that date on, we'll officially be couple. Thanks for letting me know that you're true. (: I love you. I won't let anything affect our relationship or change our mind. You make feel really loved, and I've faith that you won't leave. You're not a subtitue of her, nor I'm using you to forget her.

I know you can't forget him and the past, I too can't forget her nor the past. But it's already the past le. I've decided to put all those inside my heart and let it remain as memories. I guess she's hating me now, but I've no choice. Just let her hate me bahr. If she really feel better. Sorry I know I failed again. But I didn't lie this time. Hate me or do whatever you want. I've no comment.

Thus from now on, I want to live lead a happy with you and only you. And your that STUPID TEETH!
I really hope you won't change your mind in the end. But if you really did, I've only myself to blame. I know friends around me will be saying things to disturb us or what. But it's natural. We just don't care about them. Hahas. Just lead our life normally. Hahas. You've me and I've you. Hahas. I love you and miss you. Will be seeing you lesser le, but I hope nothing will happen. (:

Lastly, I love my silly you la! And your STUPID TEETH! Bleah. I hope you can study well and promote this year. And I hope there'll be no more slashes nor tattoo. I really don't like to see all those thing. Okays? Love you loads (:

signin off.
N.boy (:
23:19pm
28.06.09
Speechless.

Hmm, I've nothing much to say or want to explain. But I can only say that memories will always be kept in my heart including you. I've let go of everything, for I know there's no turning back for that relation, I admit I still love you the most, but my love for you will be kept in the same place as our memories. It'll always be deep inside my heart. For now, what I've to do, is to love that girl. I may have crossed the line, for she've let me know her decision, but I just want her to think about it. Hmm, it's okay if you want to blame me, I'm fine with it. So now I'm wrong, not you. I've crossed the line, and I'm not true to you. Hate me bahr. That's the only to do now. I'm sorry.

Hmm, sorry girl, if I've hurt you. She's the past and you're the present now. I've chose to let go, and I'd let it go. It's something I must do. For now, I'll love you, just you only. I really hope you've made the right decision, I hope you won't regret it in the end. (: Life with me may not be that smooth, but I'll hold you hand and walkthrough it together with you. Thanks for choosing me, from so many choices. I hope you'll be fine, I'm always here to be your listener. I'm will be there if you need someone. Hahas. Let our love goes on smoothly. Lastly, Dear I Love You (:

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
01:17am
28.06.09
A new Begining.
Saturday, June 27, 2009

Hmm, didn't know that she's having so much problem. Hais. Stayed over her at place yesterday, told her alot of things. Maybe I'm really thinking too much, I know you'll not leave me, like how the other relationship ended. I really hope we'll last. She's so silly. But I loved her still la. Thought I won't be able to find another who loved me already, I guess God still treat me quite me, and I found her. This time I won't let her go so easily. Won't repeat what I've done wrong from the past. I'll treat her better. I don't want to see her sad or what. Cause it really hurts me. And guess what? She's still sleeping le, lol. I've slept yesterday, and it's her turn now. Hahas. She's should be the first girl that see me sleep bahr? Hahas. Love her loads. Just hope everything go on smoothly, this time not much thing will be planned, we'll take plan as each day comes. Hahas. Shall end here.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
12:46pm
27.06.09
I'm Sorry.
Friday, June 26, 2009

Hmm, sorry if you really think I'm the one who asked my friends to spam your blog, but just to let you know, I really did nothing, I won't be doing this kind of silly and stupid things, cause I've much more better things to do and handle. But if you insist that I'm the one who started all the spamming, then let it be that way. I'm sorry.

Well, life goes on for you, thus life goes on for me too. Hahas. I'm sure you're leading a happy life now, and I'm leading a happy life now too. I gues God is still giving me a chance. Hahas. Have been meeting this girl for few days. Hahas. I guess it's her bahr? Hahas. It's a new begining for me again. Hahas. I just hope everything will go smoothly for us. Hahas. But it's still not the time to say out who this girl is. If you've guessed it, keep it inside you first. I'll say out when the time is right. She's so silly la. Omg. I don't think it's hard to guess who is this person. Hahas. If you've that girl link maybe you'll know. Hahas. Things are going smoothly for the time being. I don't intend to plan anything again, for it'll always turn out the other way round. Thus we'll just plan as each day passed by. Hahas. I wish the best for us.

And she's still sleeping now la. Omg. Such a PIG la. We're not together yet. We're still giving each time to think carefully. Maybe I think we'll be together. Hahas. But I gues everyone will be shocked to know who is she. Lol. Silly her, did something that make me really sad and heartbroken, told her not to do that anymore, but she still do it. But I hope it's really the last time that she's doing that, if there's the next time, I'll do the same, but worst than her. Whatever it is, just always remember I'm here. Ya? Whatever happen, please come talk to me before thinking of a solution yourself. There's always other way to solve problem, not just to hurt yourself. Ya? Hurting yourself will not solve any problem. Aiyo.

Should post more next time, for now I'll end here.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
12:57pm
26.06.09
Everything Have Come To An End..
Sunday, June 21, 2009

Hmm, finally. It's all over already. 1 Year 6 months 25 days. Thanks, for everything. We once love each other, but we're now over. I hope you'll be happy with. He's a nice guy. Give him the chance, and give yourself the chance. Don't keep things to yourself again, slowly open up to him, I'm sure he'll be a good husband.

I won't hate you, for it's not your fault. I only will hate myself, for not cherishing you well enough. I'm not a good boyfriend. Not in the past, not the present, and i guess it's the same for the future. I'm glad that someone else love you. At least you two can often see each other. You're nightmare is gone now, you won't be suffering again, you're free now. No one will knock your head again, no one will nag at you again, no one will stop you from doing these and that. But at least he's there to replace me. For me, I'm just all alone. The same things just happen again, the girl I love left in the end and there's another guy for her. Maybe it's meant to be in this way. Maybe I meant to be left alone at the end of all relationship. I don't know if I can find another girl who will love me anot, but at least I know you've found someone who love you more than I do. Forget me, it's not worth remembering NaughtyBoy, he's just someone who only hurt you more than loving you. A guy who'll always lose the girl he loved at the end of the relationship.

LIfe goes for the both of us, nothing change, just that I've to learn to do things alone, for you really nothing change, just the guy beside you change only. I'll lead my life as usual, I hope you'll too. Don't do silly things, don't be emo. No matter what happen, I'll also remember our past. Memories will not be gone. Take care. (: This year I guess I'm alone again for my birthday. Let it be this way then.

25 Nov 07 - 20 June 09 00:55/23:21

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:15am
21.06.09
I'm Sorry, ):.
Friday, June 19, 2009

So sorry, I don't know what's going on. Maybe I'm haven't change yet, there's alot of things you wanted me to change, yes maybe I've change awhile, and I'm back to my old self. I don't know why.
We seems, further than usual. I really don't want to lose you. I'm really sorry. I never really understand you before. I don't know how to solve your mysterious world. Someone else did. Hais. At least there's still someone for you. I'm glad. I know something must be done, if not I'll surely lose you. I told you before, I'll change, but end up it's still the same. Hais. There's alot of things I wanted to change, but it all went back to square one. But at least, I've changed abit. Thanks for everything you gave me, and have tolerated. I've disappoint you over and over again. I'm sorry. I've no more right to say sorry. As I've always been doing that when things happen.

I just hope there's still time for get you back before it's too late. I need you, I don't want to lose you to someone else. Hais. Sorry.

Signing off.
N.boy ):
12:07pm
19.06.09
Sorry Kor Kor ):.
Monday, June 15, 2009

Hais, sorry kor kor. I want to improve also, I've try my very best already. I'm anxious too, I'm scare too, I don't want other people to look down on me, I don't want to lose. But but, I really don't know how. I know I'm lousy, I know I'm the worst among everyone. I know I'm stupid, I ain't that smart or clever to figure it out, I know I can't get it right. I'm stress too. I really don't know what to do either. I know I disgrace you, I know I made you lose face. I'm sorry. I really can't figure it out yet. I still haven't found the feeling to it. Not I don't want to try, I've try but I don't know how to get it right. I want to win too. This time I'm more stress than before. Hais, sorry Hequan bro & sis, I'm sorry if in the end I lose. There's lesser team competiting this year, means more chances for me. But means all the team will also have more chance too. Hais. If in the end I really didn't get into TAKA, feel free to do anything to me, I mean anything, worst to worst, kick me out of HQ. I'll accept whatever thing you all want to do. Sorry ):

Dear, whatever happen, baby's always here for you, I won't leave you. Don't do anything silly, whatever thing you're thinking now, if you really can't solve, can come talk to me, I'll help you. 10 more days is our 1 Year 7 Month, I'm still happy with what I've have now. (: I love you. Take care of yourself too. (:

signing off.
N.Boy ):
21:24pm
15.06.09
I'm Injured..
Friday, June 12, 2009

Sians, I injured myself during training on wednesday. Sians. The wound seems like a tattoo. Omg. But I'm fine la. I'm left with 3 weeks of training? Cause by 01/o7 I must be ready to go out for performance already. Have to overcome my fear, if not nothing will work out right. All I need is more training? Hmm, maybe bahr. I really need to be focus.

Hmm, yesterday around mid-night, she msg-ed me regarding some issue. Hais. Sorry for letting you feel this way. I'm not quite sure why we're both having this feeling. Something must be wrong somewhere, but I just figure it out, what actually went wrong.

Suddenly, a new name had been mention in our conversation recently. I don't know I've a weird feelings. Like something may happen someday? Maybe I'm just jealous or something? I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I've just really jealous? The time you two are seeing each other day more than me, will sparks happen this way? I don't want anything to happen in anyway. I don't want to lose you in the end.

Hope that what we both feel will be gone soon. Meeting her later for lunch I think? Hmm, she's wokring till mid-night today. I hope I can fetch her home, cause it's really very late. Can't let her go home alone, I'll be worrying for her.

Have faith with me, nothing will happen, have faith in yourself too. You're so silly. I've have faith in you, I know you won't leave me, thus I'll not leave you either, none of us is leaving. We'll be together till the last day of our life. We went through so much hardship, just to come to this stage, hang on abit more, and we'll really be together.

Hmm, maybe just maybe, I'll be going back for bike licence. I know I told you I won't learn anymore, but I've already paid for it le, so might as well complete it. But don't worry, nothing will happen, I'll be really careful. I'm still considering. I know you'll be angry and upset. Sorry, I know I can't make up my own decision straight away.

I love you, I'll always be loving you. Rest asure, if I'm really going back for the licence, I'll let you know. If not I'll just go for car licence. That's only maybe, I'm still thinking. Hais. Shall end here. I love you, my dear.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
10:58am.
12.06.09
I Need To Be Focus!.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Hmm, I have yet to find the 'feelings'. I'm sorry Kor Kor. I did my best to find the kind of feelings I need. But till now I still can't find it. But I'll train hard not to let you disappointed, not to let He Quan Bro disappointed, and not to let myself and swee hao disappointed. I've only one month to train and to find the 'feelings'. It's an important competition not only to you. But to me also. For it's the first time I'm participating in the competiton. Thus I want it to be done well. Maybe I won't get into the semi-final. But at least I'll try to get at least a 8pointer. I'll really try. Hmm, training was really tough but have no choice. Cause it's only left with one month only. That's all the time I've. Jiayou bahr.

To my dear : Sorry about making you sad and angry yesterday. Didn't really mean to make you feel that way. Please do take care of yourself. I know recent incident really make you really really sad, but somehow you still must take care of yourself. Must eat and drink. Don't suffer yourself anymore. I don't know how to help you. One problem come after another. Hais. I really hope you won't do things silly.

I really don't know what to say. 人在做，天在看。Whatever you do, there's always someone looking. Think before you really talk. Are you telling the truth? Does everyone really agrees with what you say? Please think properly. Who's the one hurting who now. Lol. Better think about it real carefully.

I miss you loads.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:36am
03.06.09