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Hmm . . ..
Monday, March 30, 2009

Well, yesterday I went to see her previous post again, I know I shouldn't have do that again. But cause I got nothing to do ma, so I went to view los. But this time, I didn't cry. Hahas. Cool uh? Read their past, and our past. Hahas. Realise me and him is two different kind of people. Of course la, kns. Saw a photo where her wrist had a cut with blood flowing out, and so many scars on her hand, really make my heart real pain. She didn't so many things for him, but he don't know how to treasure her. She loved him so much yet he betrayed her. Wtf is this? Many many thoughts ran passed my mind.

They meet quite often when they're together, but quarrel alot also. My silly girl. Really suffer alot when they're together. Though he did so many things that hurt her, but but this silly girl of mine still can't forget him and their past. Hmm, I won't ask her to forget him. Nor pressure her in forgetting him, it's been 2 years since they broke up. If she wanted to forget him, she would've done it earlier or even before we're together. I always had this dream that I ended up losing her to someone else, if not I'm the one being her guest of her wedding. Hahas. Funny right?

I don't want to see her suffer anymore. She really suffer alot alot le. I shouldn't be looking backwards, what's important is the future now. Hahas. It's not worth to look back, for it'll make me feel sad. Hmm, she'll and she definitely will be my last girl and last r/s. We'll marry de. I'm sure. (: It's just a matter of time from now only. Wahahas. No one is stopping us now. It's just the age and money. (: I shall end here I think. (: Love you loads la ! Wahahas.

Kerryn & Wee Liat ;
25 Nov 07 ;
00:55am ;
1 year 4 month since 25 Nov 07 ;

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:29am
30.03.09
Sorry.
Saturday, March 28, 2009

Well, I don't know what I can say. Hais. I knew he's never forgotten. He's still somewhere in your heart. Just that I never say. He's someone whom you really loved before. Somehow I think he'll never be forgotten. Don't need try to forget him. You'll never be able to do that. I don't mind you having him in your heart still. Though you two always quarrel, but you still love him alot, maybe alot alot more then you love me. I don't have anything to say about this. Can only blame myself? For not doing my best in letting you forget him. I don't want him to ruin our future, I don't want him to affect our r/s. Maybe in the end the one you're marrying might not be me. I know you won't leave me. But still a possible that one day he'll be back for and theres still possible that one day you'll go back for him.

10 october is a date which you'll always remember. Don't blame yourself girl. It's not your fault. Sometime I really envy him, though he hurt you deeply, but you still love him so much. Remember I told you something before? I'm always the one who will be blessing my girl in the end? I really don't want to do that again, and also don't want to have to sing a song for you. I hope you still remember the song title. But if I don't have a choice to do that two things, I'll. I'm glad you admit it to me. (: Sometime I really feel so far from you. I don't know why either. Hais. See la, now I need to spend more time trying to open up you again los? Hais. Same thing just happen again. Just like my previous ex, there's someone else in her heart. She never told me, only when i saw it her dairy then I know. But still I keep quiet. Never say anything and accept it. But I cry after that, and like now, I cried too. Sigh, maybe I'm fated to be treated this way I guess? Hahas. Maybe bahr?

I'm really scare that you'll never be mine. Anything will happen at anytime, anywhere. Hais. If one day and I mean if, you really want to go back to him, or he ask for patch and you wanted to, please let me know. Ya? Don't keep it from me. I'll be hurt more. That's all I want to say bahr? Maybe will include more when I'm back or tomorrow. Still got alot alot of things to say. I love you, and I'll always be loving. Muack. Don't be sad, be happy cause you've me now. (: But maybe not long. ):

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
18:40pm
28.03.09
Happy 1 Year 4 Month Anniversary,.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009

It's been long since I last blog le. Hahas, anywhere. Happy 1 Year 4 Month Anniversary Dear. Hahas. Love you loads. (: Another month have pass le. But this month seems to passby very slowly wors. Sians. Not going for bike licence le. Instead I'm going for car, reason, her family and herself don't like and don't want me ride bike. Hais. So no choice must give up bike. Whether to take bike licence anot will have to wait till I've gotten my car licence first then can decide. Because of this licence thingy, we've a slight quarrel few days ago, and this afternoon. I can't promise you that I won't take bike licence. But will try not to take. Must see how. But 70 - 80% won't take la.



Sians. Next week dear will be overseas for like one week? Sians. Then I'll be alone again. Hais. Sure will miss her. Hmm, dear we've walked so far le. Hahas. We'll continue to walk on. Hahas. I love you. sorry for not being around when you having nightmare. Cause was on th phone with my papa.. Though I don't know what happen. But somehow I think you really have a ver bad nightmare. Cause you cried! Sorry wors. It hurt to see you cry.



Something is still keep deep inside you. I don't know when you're going to let me know. And don't know how long and how hard i need to take to open you that heart. But I'm willingly to take the hardship. (: Silly girl, you're loved by baby (: Hahas. Muacks Lastly, Happy 1 Year 4 Month Anniversary. Muack.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
22:33pm
25.03.09
Hais..
Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Hais, I really miss you alot. It's been 5 days since I last saw you. Today didn't receive your reply, really makes me worry alot alot. I won't blame you, cause I know it's hard for you to contact me easily with him around. And there's 4 more days to go before I can see you again. Really feel like hugging you right now. Just simply miss you.

To the readers of my blog : Thanks for concerning about why all my posts are so emo all that la. There's really alot alot of problems la. Just don't know how to tell you only. And it's only through blogging then I can let go abit of my stress and my problems. Though blogging won't get the reply or answer I want, but I don't have other ways to express my feeling and thoughts le. So please understand why my blog so emo all that. (:

To all the couple out there : If you can meet each other, please do so. And cherish the time you all have. If you're having any problems, solve it in a peaceful way. Don't quarrel or fight, for it's not solve the problem. Maintain your relationship well. Be there for your partner, be there when they need you. No matter what happen, never vent your anger on them. They're your loved ones not your punching bag or stuff.

I want to be there for my girl, want to be there for her when she need me. But I can't, I can only see her suffer and can't do anything to help her. Even if I want her to vent her anger on me also don't have the chance. The time we have it's just a few hours. And at most is 4 hours only. So you must be lucky to with your loved one everyday. I can only see her at most 2 - 3 days per week! At most the time we have together per week add up to only half a day which also means its 12 hours only.

I want to have extra time also can't. So if sometime I'm rejecting you if you ask me out on weekday or what, mostly is for my girl. And sometime because of lion dance I can't even meet her. I really really envy those couple who can meet often. Hais. Shall end here.

Miss you dear. Muack, love you. ):

signing off.
N.Boy ):
20:38pm
18.03.09
I'm Boring !.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Hais, I Miss Miss You Alot Alot. So Boring Now, Nothing For Me To Do. Still Need Go Hong San Tua Help Out Later, Really Don't Feel Like Going, But Like Don't Have Choice Eh. Hais. Later Also Go There Do What, Sibei Sians De los. Why Is He Fcuking Like This? I Hate Him Man! I Want To Sms With Dear Or Chat With Dear Also Can't! Msg Also Must Do It Secretly, Nabei Los!

It's Holiday Now, Not A Life In Jail Okay? Can You Kindly Let Her Go Out? She'll Be Bored Also Okay! She's A Human Not A Wood! She've Feelings Okay! You Think By Keeping Her At Home, Is For Her Own Good? Please Wake Up Your Mind La! It's 21 Century Le La, Not The 70s Okay! Knn. You And Your Stupid Thinking!

Pcb! When Can You Wake Up Sia? I Really Want To Know Sia! Do You Think You're Doing The Right Things? Crazy Guy! Don't Know Will You Get Into The Hougang 'Chalet' Sia! Hope You Go In Los! Siao Ta Boh! Die Better La!

And And, I Miss You Badly. Love You Loads. (:


Signing Off.
N.Boy (:
18:29pm
17.03.09
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Monday, March 16, 2009

Oh well, kinda bored right now, there's nothing for me to do. I miss her, won't be seeing her for this entire one week. Reason cause she's having holiday and thus, she's not allowed to go out. Omg. What a life man? Wanted to bring her out, but I know it'll never come true. Find it rather funny, he agree to let us marry already, but yet he's not letting her to go out with me. Omg, funny uh? Gosh, don't know what's in his mind.

I need a job right now, for I need the money for my bike, for my licence, to save for our future. Omg. I guess I shouldn't be fooling around le. Going to be 19 already. I should be settling down on my relationship already. No more joking around. Hahas. She's 17 this year. Next year she'll be 18. I can say it's a legal age for anything. Hahas. And when she turn 18 I think it's when we're togther for about 2 year plus. Hahas. But a few months after her birthday, I think I'm going for army le.

Hahas. Well, I'm not afraid or scare anymore. I know she'll never leave me. (: Have faith on her. We still have 5 more years to go. Only then, we can really marry. Hahas. Now it's only time that matter. Maybe must find one day to meet both side parents. Maybe meet her mummy first. Hahas. (: I think it's better to meet her first. Hahas.

How I wish she's here with me. Hmm. So I really hope this day really come, where we can really be together. Hahas. I love you. (:

signing off.
N.boy (:
12:26pm
16.03.09
How I Wish Him Die !.
Saturday, March 14, 2009

I seriously don't get it why he can be so suspicious los. Because of him, the entire chalet mood was ruin. And I'm seriously worrying for my dear. Hope he don't lay a finger on her! Fcuk him! Nbpcb! Every time drunk jiu go mad de. Kns. Can't drink jiu don't drink la. Stupid or what, then drunk le come kan dear. He think dear is his chu qi tong mea? Dumb ass los.

Dear is a human, not a dog of your's please. She's 17 le hors, not a 3 or 4 years old kid. And I hope you die man! You're not fit to be a man los. Come chalet find daughter also need tiao 2 people come along mea? Scare you kena wack mea? LMAO man! Do you know how scare is dear? It's the first time I see dear so scare los. Bloody hell you! Hope police catch you soon! And police warned you not hit or abuse her. If not they'll arrest you!

And anytime from now her mummy can ask for the custody of dear los. You better be careful hors. You this kind of people leaving in this world is seriously wasting space los. Fcuker, you die le don't think anyone will go eat your 'curry chicken' la. Hong kan si si sua la!

Hope she's fine, and nothing happen to her. I really don't want to lose her in anyway. Really very very worry. Must spend more time with her already. Sians. Miss her and worry her. Hais. Gtg now. Need to go sintua. Sians. Dear sin zai ya, bo bi dear ping ping an an. Hais.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
19:04pm
14.03.09
Sians.
Friday, March 13, 2009

Haven't been posting for the past few day a I'm not at home, was at aunty's as I need to for school for exam. Well for the pass few days, we didn't talk much untill yesterday, she seems to be somebody else, as we both realised there isn't much topic between us already. Really don't know what's the problem and what went wrong. All of a sudden we become stranger? Lol. I really don't know what to say. Hais.

Yesterday, exam was quite easy? Passing shouldn't be a problem, after the exam went home to sleep as I'm tired, woke up around 1230pm and get ready to go meet her at her school. Good that everything went back to normal. Hahas. Send her home around 3plus, and while we're walking to her home, we saw this little dog. She like the dog, so she went to see it. But it seems to be lost of something but there isn't any collar or tag on it's neck. It look really pity. So she took it home, but as the dog can't be part of her family, in case something happen to the dog. So she've no choice but to put it back.

I'm sure she's very sad and worried. ( If you all want to see the pictures of the dog, you can go to her link and see. ) But promised her that I'll get one for her la. Omg, how am I going to find the money sia. Hahas. Yesterday went to don't know what's the street name la. Beside Little India de, went there to search for my helmet, for the sky is bright, find till the sky rain. Hahas. Bought one normal helmet cost around $28. But it's black la. And I want a white one. Sians. But nevermind la. Hahas. So somehow I must really get the licence plus a bike. Hahas.

Later will be going to charlet as her mummy birthday is tomorrow so she open this charlet. Hahas. Don't know what to wear later. Sians. Nothing to blog le. Buais.

Signing off.
N.boy (:
11:29am
13.03.09
No job yet !.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Going holiday le (: but then no work yet ): sians. Omg, going to enrol for bike le. Hahas. (: Meanwhile still need to find job, if not how am I going to pay for my bike? Hahas. Really can't anyhow spend money le. Hais. I don't want to spend the whole holiday doing nothing again. Hope I can get a job soon.

Hais. It's really so stressful nowadays. Girlfriend sick, I wanted to take care of her, but always end being scolded. Maybe should blame myself I guess? She'll be irritated easily, and all I did was to irritate her more thus I got scolded. Hais. So I guess I'm stupid?

I really don't know how to make her life better, with 'HIM' around, she'll never be happy. But there's nothing I can do. Gettting rid of 'HIM' will become a crime le. Hais. What to do? I really don't know. And I also don't want to learn bike. But because of my attachment, thus I need a vehicle so I can travel around easier. Hais. Why can't people just understand this? I know there's pubilc transport, but with a bike around it'll be more convenient ma.

There's so many things I wanted to tell her, but I guess if i were to tell her, we're going to quarrel or will be in bad mood. So many of my own thoughts and comments of the things that are happening around us. But but, can I really say out? Can I really tell her? Hais.

Shall end here. Buais. I love you.

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:40am
10.03.09
Hais, Hope Nothing Happent To You !.
Thursday, March 5, 2009

Hais, something must happen to dear. I really don't wish to lost her, but if it's fate then i really don't have a choice too. Sorry maybe just now I may have say something that hurt you. Please understand, I don't wish to lose you in any way. I'm too afraid to lose you, I don't know what I'm going to do if one day you're really gone, and never come back. I tried to find out what's the problem, but you die die also don't want to tell me. So I shall not ask anymore. But hope one day you'll tell me youself. I need you, I can't afford to lose you. You've become part of my life already, a very important person in my life.

Don't worry, I'll still take care of myself if you're really gone one day. It's something you wanted me to do. So in order not make you disappointed, I'll do what you say. No matter what happen or will be happening to you, I'll still love you the most de. Even if I've another girlfriend after you're gone, I'll still love you de. I'll remember our past, the UPs and DOWNs we've gone through, the HAPPY and SORROW we've. Everything we've done during the time we're together. I'll keep it in my heart de.

Silly girl. People always say 好人有好报. But looks like it doesn't work on you? But I still hope it'll work on you too. I used one second to know you, one mintue to love you, but one lifetime to forget you. I got alot alot of things I want to say to you. But I don't know where should i start. So from now on, I hope you'l cherish your life, live for yourself and not for anyone including me. The life is given by your parent and not me. So live for them if you want. Love yourself also. It really hurt to see you suffer or torturing yourself.

As I've told you alot alot of time, you're not alone anymore since the day we're together! You've me to talk to, share things with, play with and to enjoy with. So please stop keeping things to yourself, share with baby. I won't let you suffer to take it yourself de. Don't worry, I also won't push you away if you've any illness or what so ever! I don't care de! All I know is I love you, I can do anything for you, including the death of me!

Continue holding on to my hand till the day you really have to let go. My shoulder will always be there for you de, I'll continue giving you warmth in my arms. We'll still be a lovely couple the day one of us die. I'll miss you when you're gone, and I hope you won't forget me also. Do come to my dream and find me. I'll be waiting for everyday after you're gone. But I wish this day won't come so early, better is don't come true!

So I shall end here now. Silly girl, Baby love you loads (: 25 Nov 07, 00:55am this date and time isn't just for fun de. Ya? It's the start of Kerryn & WeeLiat love story and I hope there isn't any end of story! (: Muack!

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
20:54pm
05.03.09
(:.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Hmm, time really pass so first eh. The junior that I know when they're in sec 1 are now all sec 4 or some even graduate le wors. Omg! It's like going 1 year plus since i graduate. And many many things have happen during this 1 year plus. Hahas. (: Some memory the past are kept in my heart. Things that are good will be kept, things that are bad are being forgotten. Hahas. Throughout my secondary school life, I learnt alot alot of things. Friendship, relationships.

We've been together since year 2007 till now. And we've come to a stage where, engagement is being talked about. Hahas. But but i guess it's still not time yet. Need to have a stable job first and stable income first. As what my papa say, I can't even take care of myself how am I going to take care of you? Yaya? Not I don't want to engage or what. It's cause we're still young. I don't want to let marry or engagement to tie us down. We're still have a few more years to go. Let us use this few more years to earn money and enjoy ourselves first. Ya? I want to marry you, and I'll marry you when I think I'm able to feed you able to take care of you. It's just fews years from now. At most it's 5 years from now. Yaya?

By that time I'm sure both of our parents won't reject anymore. Cause we're both 20 plus, already an adult le. Hahas. Dear, have faith on me. I don't want to let you suffer with me. I want you to enjoy life with me. Unless something happen in between la. (: Trust me. I love you (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
20:35pm
04.03.09
Hmm.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Haven't been posting for quite some day le. Sians. Exam is just next week, sians los. But okay la. Cause after that jiu holiday le ma. Hehes. (: Still haven't found a job yet sia. Anyone have job intro ma? If got please let me know. Yeah? Thanks la.

Have a good news to share. Hahas. Finally, he accepted me le! He lets us be together le! But then still must watch our behaviour la. Cannot anyhow anyhow. Must cherish this chance le. Can't let it fly away. And and, she;s still sick. OMG! Worry worry. Going to enrol for bike this week or next week. Must faster get the liscence. Hahas. Wanted to own a SP asap. Hahas.

Shall end here le. Buais. I love you!

signing off.
N.Boy (:
20:56pm
03.03.09