It's where it begins .

Happy 1 Year Anniversary Dear.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

多久了沒有你的消息上一封簡訊是星期幾
duo jiu le mei you ni de xiao xi shang yi feng jian xun shi xing qi ji
又錯過了與你的約定對不起真的不是故意
you cuo guo le yu ni de yue ding dui bu qi zhen de bu shi gu yi

有時候沒辦法陪著你你總是對我說沒關係
you shi hou mei ban fa pei zhe ni ni zhong shi dui wo shuo mei guan xi
放不下我對妳的任性對不起不該讓你傷心
fang bu xia wo dui ni de ren xing dui bu qi bu gai rang ni shang xin
有時候你會讓讓我儘管我大男人發作
you shi hou ni hui rang rang wo jin guan wo da nan ren fa zuo
有時候你會裝作不懂默默地留一些空間給我
you shi hou ni hui zhuang zuo bu dong mo mo di liu yi xie kong jian geiwo
這些事情其實我一直都藏在心裡
z he xie shi qing qi shi wo yi zhi dou zang zai xin li

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
qing ni yuan liang wo bu dong dou ni kai xin qing ni yuan liang wo bu dongting ni de xin
回想這過去我學著讓你更安心
hui xiang zhe gou chu wo xue zhe rang ni geng an xin
別賭氣別任性別放棄說聲對不起
bie du qi bie ren xing bie fang qi shuo sheng dui bu qi

請你相信我我會更加珍惜請你相信我我會呵護著你
qing ni xiang xin wo wo hui geng jia zhen xi qing ni xiang xin wo wo hui he hu zhe ni
小小的愛情卻是我最大的幸運
xiao xiao de ai qing que shi wo zui da de xing yun
疼愛的想念的都是妳
teng ai de xiang nian de dou shi ni
請你相信一個這樣的我
qing ni xiang xin yi ge zhe yang de wo
請原諒我對不起對不起
qing yuan liang wo dui bu qi dui bu

This Song Is Really Nice I Guess? And Meaningful To Me I Guess? Let Me Start Blogging (:

Happy 1 Year Dear (: Wah. It's Already 1 Year Le Worx. But Too Bad We Can't Celebrate. But It's Okay Nahr. Still Got Many Anniversary To Celebrate Till You Crazy Neh. Hahax. Hmm.

Wonder Why I Put This The Lyrics Down Bahr? Cause Dear Wants Me To Sing That For Her. But Then I Scare I Sing Bu Xia Qu. Cause It's Like Saying About Me All This While. Haix. Let Me Explain Bahr.

有時候沒辦法陪著你你總是對我說沒關係
- Sometime I Really Can't Accompany You, You'll Always Say It's Okay. Haix. I'm Like Always Busy With Lion Dance, Training, And Sintua. The Time To Accompany Seems Really Less.

對不起不該讓你傷心
- Sorry, I Shouldn't Have Make You Sad All This While. I Hurt You Deeply For Three Time, And Those I Hurt You Without Realising It.

有時候你會裝作不懂默默地留一些空間給我
- Sometime You'll Act Like Nothing Happen, And Still Accept Me.

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
- Forgive Me For Not Able To Make You Smile, Forgive Me For Not Understanding What You Want And How You Feel.

回想這過去我學著讓你更安心
- Thinking About The Past, I'm learning How To Let You Not To Worry So Much.

請你相信我我會更加珍惜請你相信我我會呵護著你
- Trust Me, I'll Cherish You more, Trust Me, I'll Dote And Protect You.

小小的愛情卻是我最大的幸運
- A Littel Love Story, But It's My Pleasure To Have You.

疼愛的想念的都是妳
- The One I Dote, The One I Miss Is Just You.

請你相信一個這樣的我
- A Guy Who Don't Know To Cherish His Girl, A Guy Who Let His Girl Suffer, A Guy Who Only Know How To Hurt His Girl Instead Of Loving Her, A Guy Who Doesn't Worth To Be Love At All, A Guy Who Don't Even Understand His Girl At All. I Maybe Penniless, I Maybe Ugly, I Am Be Useless, I Maybe Stupid.

But Will You Mind Letting A Person Like Me To Love You? Remember I Told You To Give Me An Answer During Our 1 Year? Today Is The Day Le. Though You Told Me Before Le. But Thing Change And Answer May Change Too. I'll Accept Whatever Answer You Give Me. Even If It's Not What I Want. I'll Also Accept It.

請原諒我對不起對不起
- Please Forgive Me. I'm Sorry, Saying Sorry Now I Know It's Too Late. Asking You To Forgive The Things I've Done Wrong, Is Too Late Also. But I Hope You'll Still Forgive Me. I Love You.

That's All Le. Happy 1 Year Anniversary Dear (:

Signing Off.
N.Boy (:
20:12pm
25.11.08

Congrats Ah Boon.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

sianx. haven't been post for days again. lols. 1st things 1st. congrats to ah boon. now married le worx. wahahax.

sianx. drink i vomit after the wedding eh. knn. 1st time i vomit sio! cbcb.

2 more days to 1 year. but won't be meeting dear, haix. cause of that madman! curse him die! haix. 1 year also don't let us meet. wtf right? brainless or what? we've been together for so long le eh. want reject or want break us up also done before le. but we're still together now eh. can't you see how strong our love is? let us be together also can't! can't even sms or chat on phone le. you nbcb! i hope you're dead went you go overseas!

i miss dear alot eh. yesterday she meet with accdient los. don't know what happen also. saw from her blog. lol. sianx. dragon and lion training all got problems eh. all left so less training nia. lol. i worry los. this is a pk event los. can't lose face. haix.

i don't know what to blog le. later or what then blog bahr (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
12.03pm
23.11.08

So Bored.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Im Bored Eh. I Don't Know What To Do Now. Haix. I Haven't See Dear For Quite Some Time Le Eh. Can Say Is Didn't Meet At All Eh. Haix. I Miss Miss Her Eh. Lol. I Want To See Her Eh. Lol. She Say One Year That Day Which Is 25 Nov. We Can't Meet. Can Only Celebrate In Dec. Haix. Really Very Sad Eh. Haix. But Boh Bian. She Can't Go Out. But I Really Want To See Her Eh.

Haix. I Really Don't Know If I Can Really Hang On Anymore Eh. I Don't Want To Leave You. But I'm Getting Lonelier And Lonelier As Each Day Pass Eh. We Can't Go Out Nvm. But We Can't Even Chat And Even Chat Online. Lol. Wtf Right? I Know It's Not Your Fault. Haix. I Don't Want To Feel This Way Also. But It's Been So Long Since I Last Meet You Eh. Haix. I'm Controlling My Emotion Now. Haix. Sorry Dear. Saying This Will Hurt You Alot. But I Don't Want To Keep It From You Either.

Haix. I've Been Bear-in With Many Many Things. But Then I Just Didn't Say Out Nia. Cause I Don't Want To Hurt You. Haix. Why When Both People Love Each Other So Much, But Then They Can't Be Together? Why Must We Be Suffering All This? I Don't Want It This Way. I Hate It, I Really Hate It. I Want Our Life To Better. I Don't Want To Many Restriction, Don't Want To See Dear So Less, I Want Dear To Accompany Me, I Want To Accompany Her. Whenever She's Sick, There's No One Looking After Her, When She's Woke Up From Nightmare There's No One For Her To Hug.

I Want To Do That For Her. Want To Be There For Her. I Want To Be With Her At All Times! Haix. It's So Unfair Los! Fcuk! ROAR!!!

Signing Off.
N.Boy (:
21:12pm
19.11.08

I'm Missing You Neh.

Friday, November 7, 2008

i miss you alot alot. haix. today suppose to dear. but then that madman at home. so can't meet. haix. yesterday saw dear. and we hug-ed like we never hug before like that. so tight. simply miss the hug man. lol. she seems to like slim down le eh. lol. haix. don't know when then can see her again. so happy to see her. though see her less then half an hour. but better no see her.

i never miss someone so much before. haix. dear. i'm sorry about have happen. but please trust me. i love you still. though it's hard. but please trust me. you will never be replace by any other girl. hmm. you say he seem to be accepting me slowly le. maybe next year slowly we can meet more and more le. i hope so also. haix. i want to see you everyday. hope he let you come my house during you school holiday.

hmm. one year is coming le. long-ed for it. hahx. then up comes 2 year, 3 year and more. you say he'll test the guy who wants to marry you. and in 2 years time i want to engage with you. hope 2 years faster come. (:

wasn't feeling very well. this few days. have been falling sick for a week plus le. haix. stupid me. don't know why keep sick and sick. hate it man! fcuk the sickness! it ain't good!

hmm. yesterday went to help HUANG SHU ZONG HUI perform dragon dance. and so 'unlucky' we tio a guan mo hui for dragon which is international! wtf! another guan mo hui! and it's on dec 14 and fcuk! 6 days later which is dec 20 lion dance guan mo hui! for dragon i'm not worry. but for lion i super worry eh. haven't start any training eh! lol. jia lat los. still got 1 more month nia. how train? sianx.

got to go le. buaix. i love you dear (: and i miss you ):

signing off,
N.Boy (:
21:20pm
07.11.08

Sorry Dear.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

haix. sorry dear. today i'm busy with the spring cleaning so can't pei you much. and i know i shouted at you. i'm sorry. i really don't mean to do that. cause i'm very tired at that point of time. and you called me. yes the background sound did have girls, but it's my friend's girlfriend and my lion dance friends hu's girl ma. i know the tone sound very fierce and piss-ed up. i'm sorry. i didn't change.

haix. i don't know how to explain to you. sorry dear. made you sad again. haix. i don't know what have happen to me this few days. i miss you too much. miss till i'm going crazy. i really want to see you. i miss you hug, you kiss. the way you're blur blur. haix.

i wish i could see you. as long as possible. sorry. don't wish to blog anymore.

signing off.
N.Boy ):
21:10pm
02.11.08

So Worry About You.

hmm. so sianx. yesterday no blog. hmm. worry about dear. haix. maybe as what she'd said. because many days didn't meet up le. so feel so werid i see her yesterday. haix. didn't mean it also. cause this few days have alone all the while, suddenly got someone beside me, the feeling just not right.

reason for this is : because i simply miss dear too much. i really want to accompany her or i should say, i need her accompany. haix. i really feel lonely. i want dear! i really hate this loneliness. i know dear hate this feeling either. dear hope you understand me for being so cold yesterday. i really didn't mean to be cold. sorry dear, sorry that i once again made you sad. i really don't know what to do.

sometime im thinking to myself. why other couple out there can meet often, even weekends and holiday, but we can't. why other couple can visit both side parents, but we can't. haix. so many why. i really scare i'll go mad! cause i really dear to accompany me. i really just feel alone at home. we can't even talk on phone neh. wtf rtye? haix. i really scare if one day i go mad, i'll go astray eh. i'm controlling myself now.

sometime, when i'm out alone. i often see couple together going shopping, going movie, kbox, play pool, go to beach, blah blah blah. i really feel so sad eh. why can't we go that? we're couple also eh. but why can't we do the same? i guess you feel the same way also right? i miss you, i seriously do. though can see that i'm happy or what. but deep inside me. i'm never happy. even during you school days. everytime i send to the bus stop to wait for bus and see you board the bus. it really break my heart. cause i won't know when the next we'll meet again. haix. sometime i really feel like crying out. but i can't.

sometime when i go find my friend, who's girl. you'll feel sad or think that i may fall for them. but let me tell. no i won't, maybe i may have some feelings for them. but it's cause i miss you too much. and i mistook as you. i find them the main purpose is ask them accompany. yes, you may ask. why don't you find friends who's guy? why must be girl?

reason simple. im closer to girls. and when if guy want to find someone to talk about things like r/s we normally won't find guys. it's just so weird to find guys talking about this. haix. there's many thing im keeping inside me. same as you. i don't know to talk to you about it. don't know why. haix. but trust baby. i love you and only you.

hmm. sorry dear, i know learning bike wasn't what you want. thanks for respecting my decision. i know it's dangerous. if anything happen, i may just die on the spot. but since i make this decision, thus i have mental preparation for the worst situation. really. im fine. i know you're sad about this. haix.

haix. don't know when then can we really be together. i really can't take it anymore. i'm going to collapse one day. going crazy one day! argh! i hate him! i want to curse him also, i want him dead also. but i really can't do anything. cause if i really did something to him. retribution won't fall on me. but on our next generation. they'll suffering for us. thus i don't want, and won't do anything to him! he'll taste the retribution one day. maybe it's long. but don't worry. once you're 18 and if we're getting marry. he can't do anithing either.

haix. imissyou. one year it's coming it's way le (:
signing off.
N.Boy ):
00:56am
02.11.08