hmm. don't know what to post today. injure my head. kns. gt blueblack le! wtf. so pain can?. haix. dear so lonely, yet i can't accompany her. stupid holiday, stupid him. i super duper hate him. he @#$%^&* nabei. i hope someone can settle him fast! i want him DEAD! really, if dear don't settle him. i think i'll settle him myself. he so WTF los. inhuman man.

dear is a human not an animal, not his pet, she is his daughter eh. yet he treat dear like what? prisoner? punching bag? or what? what makes him a good father? he think he's who? he's just a normal person los. wtf. can't control dear like this da los. lol. arghh!

hmm. and for my dear lea, don't think too much. yaya? iloveyou and i'll always do. it's not the size, the look, the character that matter, it's the heart (: silly girl. >.<>

signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:52am
31.10.08

it's been days since i last saw dear. haix. don't know how is she now. haix. i hope she's fine bahr. haix. i seriously miss her eh. haix. don't know this friday can meet her not. haix. if that madman is at home and not going out. means we can't meet again. lol. dear feel lonely now. haix. i really worry for her. i don't know if i can bear with it not. i want to see her everyday, i want to keep her by my side all day long. haix. don't know what she's doing now.

i'll try to control myself. i'm going mad soon. cause i really don't know if we can meet again not. from now till her school reopen it's like 2 months from now los. wtf. so long can? haix. sometime i really feel useless. don't why. whenever i know dear's sad. i really feel down. cause i can't make her happy.

it's been long since i really see dear smile le. i don't know when can i see it again. haix. i need to save alot alot of money. going find job and do le. haix. i need get about $2k to $3k. $500 for my liscene, $2000 for my bike, $500 to save. haix. sad-ed. i want to get those asap. targeting it now. maybe i going book a date for the liscene soon. need to ask my friends accompany me go. cause i don't know how to book. then meanwhile need to work too, not forgeting going around and see bike. must get a best price for the bike and hopefully with good condition. hope can chu bike with ah boy. (: then maybe going modify abit. must see how. but if i really can chu bike. the colour comfirm is pink or baby pink if not jiu baby blue. for my car it's the same colour also (:

hahx. too many things i need to do already. haix. nevermind. going sintua now. cause today is chu yi. means i need to jump. not forgetting something. i must improve. i want to jump better. i need to open my mouth le. sintua big day coming again le. haix. (: gtg le. buaix.

laopo eh, baby will be fine no matter how sick i am. (: trust me, don't need to worry for me. and riding a bike is dangerous i know. but i know what i'm doing. i won't ride you on my bike. cause can't afford for accident to happen on you. accident will happen. but i'll try to prevent it from happening. so have faith in baby (: iloveyou. touch wood la. if one day i really happen to meet with an accident on my bike. don't feel sad for me. cause im the one who want to ride a bike. so i deserve it. if touch touch wood. im kill-ed because of bike. forget about baby. start a new life. let me live in your memory. but not your heart. give someone else a chance. really. or if im handicap. do the same. forget me. i don't want to be trouble by me. you don't have to takecare of me. i'll be fine with it. really (:

iloveyou. imissyou. what happens to me in the future. remember this. our love starts from 25 Nov 07. and end on the date i leave this end. (: we once love each other before, we once were a couple before. i'll love you still. (: hahax. gtg (:

signing off.
N.boy (:
18:57pm
29.10.08

hmm. another sianx day, woke up at 7am this morning. but then lazy go SW which is PE in ITE term. so continue sleeping. then 9am woke up again. so decide to go school for FDM as section head coming our class. lol. so reached school @ 10plus. and the entire lesson i don't what is it about los. kns. then section head come. say alot of rubbish. sianx. blahblahblah! finally school end-ed. went to east point to repair phone. and wtf. my phone is out of warranty. and it'll cost me $80 eh. kns. must find that amount of money le. sianx. then jiu came back home le. and again. i ate a meal today nia.

hmm. sorry dear. i insisted on learning bike is cause i don't want to stay @ aunty home anymore. many thingy which i don't want to say. so i need a transport. i know it's dangerous and you strongly disapprove of it. but sorry. i still insist on getting a bike. cause i really need a transport. haix. i'll be careful. most likely will get my liscene n bike by next year feb. latest is april. then after that must save money again. cause i'm going for car liscene also. my bike will ride till i go army. after that jiu go work n buy a car le. im sorry for making this decision dear. hope you understand.

haix. yesterday, dear like went up. hatred fill her heart and mind. she's out of control. she's like another person. a person whom i never want to meet. her mind is full of revenge, revenge and more revenge. haix. i don't know how to help her. don't know what i can do to ease her hatred. i know the only way to ease her hatred is when he die. haix. but but. how? i really don't know eh. i really feel useless and so scare. she totally scare me yesterday. i asked her to vent her anger and whatever on me. boh bian i'm her bf so it's my responsible for me to direct her anger on me. i rather she vent her anger on me, hit me, or even kill. as long as i can ease her. anything i also can do. i can even kill that madman for her if she wants. if she really want me to kill him. i'll and after i kill him. i'll end my life too. (: i rather die myself then being killed by other people.

i try to help to her. but i guess there's nothing i can do eh. lol. see her so sad so afraid. it really hurt me alot eh. i miss her, i really miss her. and i don't know when is the next time i can meet. her. maybe next year bahr? which is 2 months later. cool huh? lol. all his fault. and he actually can push his own mum down. wtf. i curse him die terrible terrible. lol. haix i don't know le. go play my game le.

love you and miss you.
kerryn & weeliat
25 Nov 07
00:55am

signing off.
N.boy (:
20:31pm
28.10.08

i'm back to blogging (: hmm. 1st of all thanks he quan bro n sis for the charlet! ESP SWEE HAO FOR THAT 2 DRINK HUH! after dat 2 drink i'm half maboh! and guess what! he's the 1st to toh b4 me and ah peng! wahahax! this is the 1st time he quan bro n sis help me celebrate birthday! thanks peng for 'helping' with the cake (:

next. that madman ke siao again! omg! it's on charlet that day! fcuk-ed spoiled my mood! he actually kill-ed all the hamster! including my quan quan. bloody hell him! hope he faster bang car die! he's insane los. kns. then friday dear came to my house. the 1st thing she do when she saw was to hug me and cry! OMG! it's da 2nd or 3rd time i saw dear cry le. haix. heart pain eh. haix. she's so afraid los. i can feel that she's shivering los. wtf! i so scare something happen to her los, then when reach my home, she emo diaox. lol. haix. then i let her sleep los. in the end i fall aslp also. then around 10plus. we both woke up. then she told she want to watch movie. but i thought she say don't want le so nevermind los. cab-ed to ps and got the ticket for the movie. kns so infront los. hmm. nice show i can say? and it's the don't know how many movie we watch-ed together le. hehex.

can treat the movie as an early 11th month anniversary celebration? hahax. hmm, then sat finally can meet dear le. hahx. and it's 11th month worx! wahahx. finally got to meet on our anniversary le. wahahax (: but a short while nia. lol.

hmm. 11th month le. haix. but we still can't offically go out and meet yet. during her school days already meet less le. now it's her holiday. it'll comfirm be lesser. lol. but i guess it's better this way bahr? as i told dear just now. though we're meeting less. but it's better. as i learnt how to cherish someone whom is important to me. as compare to my previous r/s i can say that i'm taking grant-ed that i have my gf with me all the day. so i don't need to care so much whether they're sad, happy or what so ever. cause we're meeting almost 7 days a week, and almost all the time we're just beside each other. so whoever's feeling down or doing what we'll know on the sport ma. for being with dear is totally different.

cause we can't be together all the time. so when we're together. i'll cherish each and every moment. maybe starting i'm not doing that. as i thought i'm just a subtitue of someone. but after that yes. the time we're together it's just too little le. weekend can't meet, holiday can't meet, anniversary can't meet. wtf. he control-ed dear too much le. i know he's concern with dear. but don't he think he's controlling too much of her life? haix.

i'm always worrying for dear. cause i don't know when that madman going crazy again. and don't know what thing he'll do each time. lol. how i wish dear can stay with me. lol. really eh. haix. i don't what to say eh.

but but. happy belat-ed 11month anniversary dear. (: going one year le worx (: whahax. didn't expect that we can actually walk this far. (: let's continue walking yeah? (: iloveyou (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
20:51pm
27.10.08

sianx. hmm. i'm finally 18 le. wahahax. thanks ah boy, ah boy's gf and hong rui for celebrating my birthday with me. and thanks for the cake (: lol. REALLY THANKS worx!

hmm. sianx. still got one more of celebration eh. this coming thursday. comfirm gao lat gao lat one! kns. hmm. thanks dear. though you can't celebrate with. but don't blame yourself. you can't go out ma. so not your fault ma. hmm. yaya? i love you nahr. we'll have chance to celebrate together one. (: don't worry. yaya?

well. this year birthday really special eh. didn't expect to have celebrating with me eh. and those wishes. really thanks people. (: though some people may forget my birthday. but some still remember. (: ah boy say 18yrs old's wish will come true. so i hope it'll really come true.

hmm. dear's holiday starting le. sianx. means we'll be seeing each other lesser le eh. haix. hmm. maybe it's because of this reason, that's why we treasure and cherish each and every moment together. and it's also the reason. why we can last till now. hmm. going 11th month. hahax. can't meet again. haix. but during our 1yr, i think we'll be able to celebrate together. yaya?

hmm. time pass so fast, im 18 le. hahax. happy birthday to me! wahahax. hope every year will be like this bahr? hahax. kns. hmm. i'll comfirm miss dear eh. lol. sianx maybe next year then can meet eh. haix. so long. how to survive? dear eh, you must learn to takecare of yourself eh. yaya? don't fall sick eh. cause baby can't take care of you during your holiday eh. i'll be worry for you eh. i'll take care of myself one. and will be maintain 'fat fat' for you to press eh. hahax. i'm your 'teddy bear' wahahax. (:

you must also eat worx. if not i'll knock you arh! >< and you got 2 months to think of a blogskin for me eh. yaya? wahahax. (: hmm. really going to miss you le eh, sianx. how how? i hope he can let you go out with me eh. lol. but somehow it looks impossible bahr? hmm, must bear with not meeting yo for 2 months eh. haix. now you have nightmare also can't hug me le. so sorry worx. if have nightmare hug hug MRS PANDA. yaya? anything just call or msg me. i'll answer and reply you asap. (:

must blog blog everyday worx. i'll try to blog every day also. (: cause only through blogging then i can know what you're doing ma. yaya? normally people like holiday. but for me, i hate holiday. cause during school holiday means we can't see each other. so i really hate holiday. hope next year will be different. hope he'll be less strict with you. cause you're 17 next year, not a small kid anymore le. and i'll 19 next year.

hmm. sorry dear, maybe i'm going to learn bike before i learn car. cause it's better for me to have a transport. i know it's dangerous and you don't like. but i'll learn 1st. then decide whether to buy a bike not. hmm. but most likely yes. but don't worry. when i'm meeting you. i won't ride. cause you don't like ma. unless you want me to give you a ride. then i'll ride. yaya? hehex. i hope you can let me ride a bike.

sorry for making this decision. but i'll be carefull one. and it'll only be next year then i'll get my bike. won't be so fast. (: hope you support me. iloveyou.


signing off.
N.boy (:
12.31am
22.10.08

hmm. 7 more days to my birthday and 11 more days to 11th month (: we've been together for so long le. but we still need to hide here and there. lol. wtf. hmm. now he may say it's okay. but later on he may object again. lol. i really hope he can just let us go out in peacefully. we also didn't do anything do anything wrong. and we're not a children le los. we know how to think and what should do what shouldn't do le los. does going out with dear kills him? lol los.

hmm. mus bear with it los. kns. hope he'll less strict with dear. see dear always trap-ed at home and doing nothing really break my heart. haix. she's 16 le eh. not 13 neh. lol. can't go out with friends. can't do this do that. lol. wtf los. i want to bring dear out! i want to take her out of the trap. and let her free. she doesn't deserve to be treated like this los. lol.

hmm. 11th month coming. but it's a on weekends thus it means that dear and i can't meet on that. haix. lol. always like this los. hope our 1yr dear can go out the whole day. i plan-ed many thing for her le. lol. if she can come out then the plan will really surprise her eh. lol.
hmm. so fast eh. 1yr is just one month away from now eh. hahx. time really flies eh. lol.

this one year can say it's a tough begining for the both of us. so many things that is trying to break us up or seperate us. it's a tough path for us in this one year. but we can't just stop here. we've plan so many things ahead of us le. so we must move on so that what we plan can be fulfill. but i won't let you move on alone. i'll move on with you. let's walk towards our 2nd yr. yaya? though it's still far. but looking forward is what we must do. what past had past. we shouldn't think too much about it. we should use the past as in example to improve in the future.

one day, we'll both be together forever. no one can seperate us up. there'll be this chance when you woke up. the 1st person you'll see is me. (: sleeping beside you. iloveyou. hahx. let's us walk towards the future, together hand in hand.

signing off.
N.Boy (:
18:22pm
14.10.08

Haven't Been Posting For Quite Some Days Already. Hmm There's Goods And Bads News. Lol. Start From Bad News Bahr. Hmm Bad News Is Tomorrow School Reopen Already, Means Will Not Be Able To Meet Dear For Sometime As TimeTable Is Quite Fcuk-ed Up La. Only Friday Can Meet Only. Lol. Sianx. Means Dear Must Learn To Be On Her Own Le. Must Learn To Indepent Le Worx. Cause I Won't Be By Her Side For Sometime, And During Her Holiday Might Not Be Able To Often Also. Sianx. So Worry For Her Eh. Lol.

Good News Is, Dear And I Can Finally Be Go Out Without Hiding Here And There Le. Causer Her Dad Say He Didn't Stop Us From Being Together, Despite Him Trying To Break Us Up, We Still Are Together. He Was Shock-ed To Know Us Still Together. Hahax.

Hmm. Despite So Many Objection, So Many Obstacles, So Many Problems That Had Happen During This Period Of Time. We Still Manage To Walk Together And To Overcome Together. Hmm. Though Many Things Had Happen That Cause The Both Us To Be Down Or Upset. But We Still Believe In Each Other.

Hmm. Thanks Dear, For Accepting My Goods And Bads. I Don't What To Say To Thanks You. I Bought A Ring The Other Day. Actually We Didn't Intend To Buy It. For See Dear Wanted It So Much So Might As Well Buy It For Her. Hmm. Though Many People Won't Believe That We Can Last. But Please Open Your Eyes And See. We Indeed Last Okay! The Ring Can Be Treated As An Engagement Ring As What Dear Say? Hahax. I Wanted To Dear My Rightfully One. But It's Still Early Eh. And I'm Sure Her Parents And My Parente Won't Allow It To Happen. As We're Still Young. And I Don't Have A Stable Income.

Dear Let's Hang On And Bear With It Okay? 2 Years Later We'll Be Able To Engage Le. Yaya? I Love You To Bits Too. You're My One And Only Girl (: It's Not Easy To During This Path, But We Still Manage To Walk Past It. So I'm Sure No Matter What Difficulties Or What Obstacles We're Going To Face, I'm Sure We Can Overcome It Too. 11th Month And 1yr Is Coming. And During Our 1yr I Hope I Can Give You An Surprise. Hope It'll Be A Meaningfull One.

Hahax. Shall End Here (:
I Love You (:

Signing Off.
N.Boy
17:30pm
12.10.08

Today Another Day Had Passed. And My Poor Girl Is Sick Again. OMG! She Almost Faint Today Eh. Scare Dao Me. Lol. Hmm. How Should I Start Today Post? Start From Work Bahr.

Hmm. Had Been Working Since My Holiday Start. It's About Sales And Marketing. Hmm. Got Do Got Money, No Do No Money. Hmm. Since I Hit My Marketing Executive Position. Everything Seems To Be So Difficult Already. Very Stressed Up. As I Need Earn Back Money And Pay Papa. Must Prove To Everyone That I Can Make It. It's Just A Matter Of Time Only. Lol. That's About it.

Next Lion Dance. Hmm. Ah Peng Funnyly Push Me Up As A Leader. Kns. I Don't Think I'm Able To Fit That Role. Don't Know Why. Maybe I'm Still Not Ready Yet. Lol. So Stressed Up Again. Lol. Many Things Are Waiting For Me To Do. Kns.

Sintua Now. Hmm. I'm Still Not A Good Kitong Yet. Lol. Had Alot Of Things To Learn. And So Fcuked Up. Stressed Up Again.

Hmm. Then It's My Girl. Haix. So Worry For Her. Always So Sick. Hmm. Then She'll Be Alone When I Start School. Then Don't If We Can Celebrate Our One Year Not. Cause Of That Him! Fcuk Up. I Know Many People Don't Really Want Me To Be With Her. As They Think Given Dear Tiao Jian. She Confirm Can Find A Better Guy Then Me. Hmm. Maybe That's True. And It's About Time For Dear To Give Me An Answer Le Bahr? Hahax. Whatever That Decision Is. I'll Be Fine With It. Maybe This Last 2 Month I've Been Trying My Best To Understand Dear More. And To Love Her More. This Few Weeks Have Been Readin Newspaper Seeing Many People Pass Away. Maybe Cause Of Illness Or Suicide. Hmm. Then Had This Dream That I Wrote My Last Words And Say What I Want To Everybody. And I "Peacefully" Leave This World.

Hmm. Really Wondering. What's Life After Death. But I Still Got So Much Things To Do. Can't Just End My Life Like This. But I'm Stress Up Eh. So Many Things. Haix. But If I Really Leave This World. I'll Confimr Leave Unpeacefully. Cause Dear Will Be Alone. Family Wil Be Alone. And I'm So Worry For Dear And Family. Haix.

End Here Le. Time For Sleep. Nothing To Say,

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:04am
08.10.08

hmm. my dear is sick again!!! omg! i really can't stop worrying for her eh. lol. clumsy clumsy da. kns. aiyo! my dear eh, must learn to take care of yourself now eh. cause this term i can't really skip school with you eh. cause it's on assignment basis eh. need to complete it to pass eh. lol. maybe one week can only meet once nia eh. haix. and it's getting closer and closer to school reopen. lol.

hmm. no more tiao zhuang le. cause the zhuang haven't come it yet. so new task for me! kns. perform the so call 'bridge' it's traditional style. but we'll play it in semi traditional, semi freestyle. lol. hmm. 2 month to practice and train nia. lol. i think abit rush eh. but must train hard. cause if we perform well. we'll sure PK alot of people eh. and it's da 1st time we use this to perform outside i guess? so must do my very best. tough training is on it's way no matter what must train well. (:

maybe can use it to enter competition also. lol. but too competitive eh. lol. i scare scare eh. kns. hmm. no matter what still must put in effort for this 2 month. (: jiayou! must do hequan proud (:
wahahax. strive for the best is what i must do now (:

hmm, going sleep le. tomorrow still got lion dance. kns. (:

i LOVE you my dear,
remember take care of yourself eh.
i MISS you!

signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:59pm
02.10.08

hmm. don't know what to post today. injure my head. kns. gt blueblack le! wtf. so pain can?. haix. dear so lonely, yet i can't accompany her. stupid holiday, stupid him. i super duper hate him. he @#$%^&* nabei. i hope someone can settle him fast! i want him DEAD! really, if dear don't settle him. i think i'll settle him myself. he so WTF los. inhuman man.

dear is a human not an animal, not his pet, she is his daughter eh. yet he treat dear like what? prisoner? punching bag? or what? what makes him a good father? he think he's who? he's just a normal person los. wtf. can't control dear like this da los. lol. arghh!

hmm. and for my dear lea, don't think too much. yaya? iloveyou and i'll always do. it's not the size, the look, the character that matter, it's the heart (: silly girl. >.<>

signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:52am
31.10.08

it's been days since i last saw dear. haix. don't know how is she now. haix. i hope she's fine bahr. haix. i seriously miss her eh. haix. don't know this friday can meet her not. haix. if that madman is at home and not going out. means we can't meet again. lol. dear feel lonely now. haix. i really worry for her. i don't know if i can bear with it not. i want to see her everyday, i want to keep her by my side all day long. haix. don't know what she's doing now.

i'll try to control myself. i'm going mad soon. cause i really don't know if we can meet again not. from now till her school reopen it's like 2 months from now los. wtf. so long can? haix. sometime i really feel useless. don't why. whenever i know dear's sad. i really feel down. cause i can't make her happy.

it's been long since i really see dear smile le. i don't know when can i see it again. haix. i need to save alot alot of money. going find job and do le. haix. i need get about $2k to $3k. $500 for my liscene, $2000 for my bike, $500 to save. haix. sad-ed. i want to get those asap. targeting it now. maybe i going book a date for the liscene soon. need to ask my friends accompany me go. cause i don't know how to book. then meanwhile need to work too, not forgeting going around and see bike. must get a best price for the bike and hopefully with good condition. hope can chu bike with ah boy. (: then maybe going modify abit. must see how. but if i really can chu bike. the colour comfirm is pink or baby pink if not jiu baby blue. for my car it's the same colour also (:

hahx. too many things i need to do already. haix. nevermind. going sintua now. cause today is chu yi. means i need to jump. not forgetting something. i must improve. i want to jump better. i need to open my mouth le. sintua big day coming again le. haix. (: gtg le. buaix.

laopo eh, baby will be fine no matter how sick i am. (: trust me, don't need to worry for me. and riding a bike is dangerous i know. but i know what i'm doing. i won't ride you on my bike. cause can't afford for accident to happen on you. accident will happen. but i'll try to prevent it from happening. so have faith in baby (: iloveyou. touch wood la. if one day i really happen to meet with an accident on my bike. don't feel sad for me. cause im the one who want to ride a bike. so i deserve it. if touch touch wood. im kill-ed because of bike. forget about baby. start a new life. let me live in your memory. but not your heart. give someone else a chance. really. or if im handicap. do the same. forget me. i don't want to be trouble by me. you don't have to takecare of me. i'll be fine with it. really (:

iloveyou. imissyou. what happens to me in the future. remember this. our love starts from 25 Nov 07. and end on the date i leave this end. (: we once love each other before, we once were a couple before. i'll love you still. (: hahax. gtg (:

signing off.
N.boy (:
18:57pm
29.10.08

hmm. another sianx day, woke up at 7am this morning. but then lazy go SW which is PE in ITE term. so continue sleeping. then 9am woke up again. so decide to go school for FDM as section head coming our class. lol. so reached school @ 10plus. and the entire lesson i don't what is it about los. kns. then section head come. say alot of rubbish. sianx. blahblahblah! finally school end-ed. went to east point to repair phone. and wtf. my phone is out of warranty. and it'll cost me $80 eh. kns. must find that amount of money le. sianx. then jiu came back home le. and again. i ate a meal today nia.

hmm. sorry dear. i insisted on learning bike is cause i don't want to stay @ aunty home anymore. many thingy which i don't want to say. so i need a transport. i know it's dangerous and you strongly disapprove of it. but sorry. i still insist on getting a bike. cause i really need a transport. haix. i'll be careful. most likely will get my liscene n bike by next year feb. latest is april. then after that must save money again. cause i'm going for car liscene also. my bike will ride till i go army. after that jiu go work n buy a car le. im sorry for making this decision dear. hope you understand.

haix. yesterday, dear like went up. hatred fill her heart and mind. she's out of control. she's like another person. a person whom i never want to meet. her mind is full of revenge, revenge and more revenge. haix. i don't know how to help her. don't know what i can do to ease her hatred. i know the only way to ease her hatred is when he die. haix. but but. how? i really don't know eh. i really feel useless and so scare. she totally scare me yesterday. i asked her to vent her anger and whatever on me. boh bian i'm her bf so it's my responsible for me to direct her anger on me. i rather she vent her anger on me, hit me, or even kill. as long as i can ease her. anything i also can do. i can even kill that madman for her if she wants. if she really want me to kill him. i'll and after i kill him. i'll end my life too. (: i rather die myself then being killed by other people.

i try to help to her. but i guess there's nothing i can do eh. lol. see her so sad so afraid. it really hurt me alot eh. i miss her, i really miss her. and i don't know when is the next time i can meet. her. maybe next year bahr? which is 2 months later. cool huh? lol. all his fault. and he actually can push his own mum down. wtf. i curse him die terrible terrible. lol. haix i don't know le. go play my game le.

love you and miss you.
kerryn & weeliat
25 Nov 07
00:55am

signing off.
N.boy (:
20:31pm
28.10.08

i'm back to blogging (: hmm. 1st of all thanks he quan bro n sis for the charlet! ESP SWEE HAO FOR THAT 2 DRINK HUH! after dat 2 drink i'm half maboh! and guess what! he's the 1st to toh b4 me and ah peng! wahahax! this is the 1st time he quan bro n sis help me celebrate birthday! thanks peng for 'helping' with the cake (:

next. that madman ke siao again! omg! it's on charlet that day! fcuk-ed spoiled my mood! he actually kill-ed all the hamster! including my quan quan. bloody hell him! hope he faster bang car die! he's insane los. kns. then friday dear came to my house. the 1st thing she do when she saw was to hug me and cry! OMG! it's da 2nd or 3rd time i saw dear cry le. haix. heart pain eh. haix. she's so afraid los. i can feel that she's shivering los. wtf! i so scare something happen to her los, then when reach my home, she emo diaox. lol. haix. then i let her sleep los. in the end i fall aslp also. then around 10plus. we both woke up. then she told she want to watch movie. but i thought she say don't want le so nevermind los. cab-ed to ps and got the ticket for the movie. kns so infront los. hmm. nice show i can say? and it's the don't know how many movie we watch-ed together le. hehex.

can treat the movie as an early 11th month anniversary celebration? hahax. hmm, then sat finally can meet dear le. hahx. and it's 11th month worx! wahahx. finally got to meet on our anniversary le. wahahax (: but a short while nia. lol.

hmm. 11th month le. haix. but we still can't offically go out and meet yet. during her school days already meet less le. now it's her holiday. it'll comfirm be lesser. lol. but i guess it's better this way bahr? as i told dear just now. though we're meeting less. but it's better. as i learnt how to cherish someone whom is important to me. as compare to my previous r/s i can say that i'm taking grant-ed that i have my gf with me all the day. so i don't need to care so much whether they're sad, happy or what so ever. cause we're meeting almost 7 days a week, and almost all the time we're just beside each other. so whoever's feeling down or doing what we'll know on the sport ma. for being with dear is totally different.

cause we can't be together all the time. so when we're together. i'll cherish each and every moment. maybe starting i'm not doing that. as i thought i'm just a subtitue of someone. but after that yes. the time we're together it's just too little le. weekend can't meet, holiday can't meet, anniversary can't meet. wtf. he control-ed dear too much le. i know he's concern with dear. but don't he think he's controlling too much of her life? haix.

i'm always worrying for dear. cause i don't know when that madman going crazy again. and don't know what thing he'll do each time. lol. how i wish dear can stay with me. lol. really eh. haix. i don't what to say eh.

but but. happy belat-ed 11month anniversary dear. (: going one year le worx (: whahax. didn't expect that we can actually walk this far. (: let's continue walking yeah? (: iloveyou (:

signing off.
N.Boy (:
20:51pm
27.10.08

sianx. hmm. i'm finally 18 le. wahahax. thanks ah boy, ah boy's gf and hong rui for celebrating my birthday with me. and thanks for the cake (: lol. REALLY THANKS worx!

hmm. sianx. still got one more of celebration eh. this coming thursday. comfirm gao lat gao lat one! kns. hmm. thanks dear. though you can't celebrate with. but don't blame yourself. you can't go out ma. so not your fault ma. hmm. yaya? i love you nahr. we'll have chance to celebrate together one. (: don't worry. yaya?

well. this year birthday really special eh. didn't expect to have celebrating with me eh. and those wishes. really thanks people. (: though some people may forget my birthday. but some still remember. (: ah boy say 18yrs old's wish will come true. so i hope it'll really come true.

hmm. dear's holiday starting le. sianx. means we'll be seeing each other lesser le eh. haix. hmm. maybe it's because of this reason, that's why we treasure and cherish each and every moment together. and it's also the reason. why we can last till now. hmm. going 11th month. hahax. can't meet again. haix. but during our 1yr, i think we'll be able to celebrate together. yaya?

hmm. time pass so fast, im 18 le. hahax. happy birthday to me! wahahax. hope every year will be like this bahr? hahax. kns. hmm. i'll comfirm miss dear eh. lol. sianx maybe next year then can meet eh. haix. so long. how to survive? dear eh, you must learn to takecare of yourself eh. yaya? don't fall sick eh. cause baby can't take care of you during your holiday eh. i'll be worry for you eh. i'll take care of myself one. and will be maintain 'fat fat' for you to press eh. hahax. i'm your 'teddy bear' wahahax. (:

you must also eat worx. if not i'll knock you arh! >< and you got 2 months to think of a blogskin for me eh. yaya? wahahax. (: hmm. really going to miss you le eh, sianx. how how? i hope he can let you go out with me eh. lol. but somehow it looks impossible bahr? hmm, must bear with not meeting yo for 2 months eh. haix. now you have nightmare also can't hug me le. so sorry worx. if have nightmare hug hug MRS PANDA. yaya? anything just call or msg me. i'll answer and reply you asap. (:

must blog blog everyday worx. i'll try to blog every day also. (: cause only through blogging then i can know what you're doing ma. yaya? normally people like holiday. but for me, i hate holiday. cause during school holiday means we can't see each other. so i really hate holiday. hope next year will be different. hope he'll be less strict with you. cause you're 17 next year, not a small kid anymore le. and i'll 19 next year.

hmm. sorry dear, maybe i'm going to learn bike before i learn car. cause it's better for me to have a transport. i know it's dangerous and you don't like. but i'll learn 1st. then decide whether to buy a bike not. hmm. but most likely yes. but don't worry. when i'm meeting you. i won't ride. cause you don't like ma. unless you want me to give you a ride. then i'll ride. yaya? hehex. i hope you can let me ride a bike.

sorry for making this decision. but i'll be carefull one. and it'll only be next year then i'll get my bike. won't be so fast. (: hope you support me. iloveyou.


signing off.
N.boy (:
12.31am
22.10.08

hmm. 7 more days to my birthday and 11 more days to 11th month (: we've been together for so long le. but we still need to hide here and there. lol. wtf. hmm. now he may say it's okay. but later on he may object again. lol. i really hope he can just let us go out in peacefully. we also didn't do anything do anything wrong. and we're not a children le los. we know how to think and what should do what shouldn't do le los. does going out with dear kills him? lol los.

hmm. mus bear with it los. kns. hope he'll less strict with dear. see dear always trap-ed at home and doing nothing really break my heart. haix. she's 16 le eh. not 13 neh. lol. can't go out with friends. can't do this do that. lol. wtf los. i want to bring dear out! i want to take her out of the trap. and let her free. she doesn't deserve to be treated like this los. lol.

hmm. 11th month coming. but it's a on weekends thus it means that dear and i can't meet on that. haix. lol. always like this los. hope our 1yr dear can go out the whole day. i plan-ed many thing for her le. lol. if she can come out then the plan will really surprise her eh. lol.
hmm. so fast eh. 1yr is just one month away from now eh. hahx. time really flies eh. lol.

this one year can say it's a tough begining for the both of us. so many things that is trying to break us up or seperate us. it's a tough path for us in this one year. but we can't just stop here. we've plan so many things ahead of us le. so we must move on so that what we plan can be fulfill. but i won't let you move on alone. i'll move on with you. let's walk towards our 2nd yr. yaya? though it's still far. but looking forward is what we must do. what past had past. we shouldn't think too much about it. we should use the past as in example to improve in the future.

one day, we'll both be together forever. no one can seperate us up. there'll be this chance when you woke up. the 1st person you'll see is me. (: sleeping beside you. iloveyou. hahx. let's us walk towards the future, together hand in hand.

signing off.
N.Boy (:
18:22pm
14.10.08

Haven't Been Posting For Quite Some Days Already. Hmm There's Goods And Bads News. Lol. Start From Bad News Bahr. Hmm Bad News Is Tomorrow School Reopen Already, Means Will Not Be Able To Meet Dear For Sometime As TimeTable Is Quite Fcuk-ed Up La. Only Friday Can Meet Only. Lol. Sianx. Means Dear Must Learn To Be On Her Own Le. Must Learn To Indepent Le Worx. Cause I Won't Be By Her Side For Sometime, And During Her Holiday Might Not Be Able To Often Also. Sianx. So Worry For Her Eh. Lol.

Good News Is, Dear And I Can Finally Be Go Out Without Hiding Here And There Le. Causer Her Dad Say He Didn't Stop Us From Being Together, Despite Him Trying To Break Us Up, We Still Are Together. He Was Shock-ed To Know Us Still Together. Hahax.

Hmm. Despite So Many Objection, So Many Obstacles, So Many Problems That Had Happen During This Period Of Time. We Still Manage To Walk Together And To Overcome Together. Hmm. Though Many Things Had Happen That Cause The Both Us To Be Down Or Upset. But We Still Believe In Each Other.

Hmm. Thanks Dear, For Accepting My Goods And Bads. I Don't What To Say To Thanks You. I Bought A Ring The Other Day. Actually We Didn't Intend To Buy It. For See Dear Wanted It So Much So Might As Well Buy It For Her. Hmm. Though Many People Won't Believe That We Can Last. But Please Open Your Eyes And See. We Indeed Last Okay! The Ring Can Be Treated As An Engagement Ring As What Dear Say? Hahax. I Wanted To Dear My Rightfully One. But It's Still Early Eh. And I'm Sure Her Parents And My Parente Won't Allow It To Happen. As We're Still Young. And I Don't Have A Stable Income.

Dear Let's Hang On And Bear With It Okay? 2 Years Later We'll Be Able To Engage Le. Yaya? I Love You To Bits Too. You're My One And Only Girl (: It's Not Easy To During This Path, But We Still Manage To Walk Past It. So I'm Sure No Matter What Difficulties Or What Obstacles We're Going To Face, I'm Sure We Can Overcome It Too. 11th Month And 1yr Is Coming. And During Our 1yr I Hope I Can Give You An Surprise. Hope It'll Be A Meaningfull One.

Hahax. Shall End Here (:
I Love You (:

Signing Off.
N.Boy
17:30pm
12.10.08

Today Another Day Had Passed. And My Poor Girl Is Sick Again. OMG! She Almost Faint Today Eh. Scare Dao Me. Lol. Hmm. How Should I Start Today Post? Start From Work Bahr.

Hmm. Had Been Working Since My Holiday Start. It's About Sales And Marketing. Hmm. Got Do Got Money, No Do No Money. Hmm. Since I Hit My Marketing Executive Position. Everything Seems To Be So Difficult Already. Very Stressed Up. As I Need Earn Back Money And Pay Papa. Must Prove To Everyone That I Can Make It. It's Just A Matter Of Time Only. Lol. That's About it.

Next Lion Dance. Hmm. Ah Peng Funnyly Push Me Up As A Leader. Kns. I Don't Think I'm Able To Fit That Role. Don't Know Why. Maybe I'm Still Not Ready Yet. Lol. So Stressed Up Again. Lol. Many Things Are Waiting For Me To Do. Kns.

Sintua Now. Hmm. I'm Still Not A Good Kitong Yet. Lol. Had Alot Of Things To Learn. And So Fcuked Up. Stressed Up Again.

Hmm. Then It's My Girl. Haix. So Worry For Her. Always So Sick. Hmm. Then She'll Be Alone When I Start School. Then Don't If We Can Celebrate Our One Year Not. Cause Of That Him! Fcuk Up. I Know Many People Don't Really Want Me To Be With Her. As They Think Given Dear Tiao Jian. She Confirm Can Find A Better Guy Then Me. Hmm. Maybe That's True. And It's About Time For Dear To Give Me An Answer Le Bahr? Hahax. Whatever That Decision Is. I'll Be Fine With It. Maybe This Last 2 Month I've Been Trying My Best To Understand Dear More. And To Love Her More. This Few Weeks Have Been Readin Newspaper Seeing Many People Pass Away. Maybe Cause Of Illness Or Suicide. Hmm. Then Had This Dream That I Wrote My Last Words And Say What I Want To Everybody. And I "Peacefully" Leave This World.

Hmm. Really Wondering. What's Life After Death. But I Still Got So Much Things To Do. Can't Just End My Life Like This. But I'm Stress Up Eh. So Many Things. Haix. But If I Really Leave This World. I'll Confimr Leave Unpeacefully. Cause Dear Will Be Alone. Family Wil Be Alone. And I'm So Worry For Dear And Family. Haix.

End Here Le. Time For Sleep. Nothing To Say,

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
00:04am
08.10.08

hmm. my dear is sick again!!! omg! i really can't stop worrying for her eh. lol. clumsy clumsy da. kns. aiyo! my dear eh, must learn to take care of yourself now eh. cause this term i can't really skip school with you eh. cause it's on assignment basis eh. need to complete it to pass eh. lol. maybe one week can only meet once nia eh. haix. and it's getting closer and closer to school reopen. lol.

hmm. no more tiao zhuang le. cause the zhuang haven't come it yet. so new task for me! kns. perform the so call 'bridge' it's traditional style. but we'll play it in semi traditional, semi freestyle. lol. hmm. 2 month to practice and train nia. lol. i think abit rush eh. but must train hard. cause if we perform well. we'll sure PK alot of people eh. and it's da 1st time we use this to perform outside i guess? so must do my very best. tough training is on it's way no matter what must train well. (:

maybe can use it to enter competition also. lol. but too competitive eh. lol. i scare scare eh. kns. hmm. no matter what still must put in effort for this 2 month. (: jiayou! must do hequan proud (:
wahahax. strive for the best is what i must do now (:

hmm, going sleep le. tomorrow still got lion dance. kns. (:

i LOVE you my dear,
remember take care of yourself eh.
i MISS you!

signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:59pm
02.10.08