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Sunday, January 20, 2008

hi im back postin le. (: todae pei dear almost da whole dae. frm 11am to 5pm. den i went to work. de dear went hm wif her sis. lol. sry eh. i let u go hm alone =/ don angry eh. =/

hmm we went arcade play da dono wat game for abt an hr sia. lol. bt still lost. bt den we'r top! hahx. hmm. den jiu went tu lan shop. online ; play audition ; play mani game. went dere for lyk 2 hr bah. den jiu went tu eat. den dear pei mi go take mrt. (: thx dear. ily (:

hmm. gona 2mth le. hahx. we broke record (: no quarrel no arguemet (: hooray. hmm. dear eh. tc of urslf. im awaes wry for ur health. im sick dis few dae. omg. hen xin ku nw! alamak. im so so cold cn? wth!
dear we're gona last. trust mi (: i wun leave u da. i wun leave sumone i love for sumone i lyk for da one i lyk will leav mi for da one dey luv (: rmb dis sentence? i edit it nahr. (: hmm.

i noe im awaes tinkin too much. bt its bcox im afraid u'll leave mi for him. i noe he still care n concern for u. hmm. sumhw he's a bf for he tried tu pei u n make ting for u eat n giv u stuff all dos. hmm. don wry. im tinkin much nw. jus statin da fact.

mayb i cnt be lyk him, noe hw tu express feelin. mayb i cnt be as lucky as him tu take u tu marina tu eat seafood n even cook for u tu eat for i cnt afford dat. mayb i cnt afford tu buy even a small stuff toy for u. mayb im nt as lucky as him tu stay overnight wif him. mayb i cnt spent da tym he cn spent wif u. hmm.

bt bt. i wun be lyk him. hurt u so bad. haix. bt in da end i still lose tu him bah? he's so swt afterall? i noe im nt. for i dono hw tu sweettalk nor do sweet little for u. hmm. bt i tink im hurtin dear over n over again. be it da ting i sae nor da ting i do. i noe sumhw she's hurt by mi. im sry dear. i made u wry so much. even nid u tu pay for food n all dos. its suppose tu my job tu do. bt evrytym its u hu pay it. im sry. for i reali don hv money. cn call mi xiao bai lian bah. i noe im reali poor. im tryin vry hard tu save money nw. bt haix. i still keep spent spent n spent. sry dear. cn sae im silly or wat.

bt dat hw's naughtyboy is. a poor guy ; ugly guy ; useless guy ; keep hurtin my gf ; don bring happiness tu gf ; a stupid guy ; montone ; borin person ; i guess dat all my personality bah? reali don fit tu be ani girl da bf. thx for lettin mi hold ur hand n hug u on da b4 we stead. im reali happy. i thot u wld jus push mi away for i aint ur bf at dat point of tym. jus gan onli. hmm. im gttin weaker n weaker le. i dono y. reali vry weak. bt i cnt be weak. for i nid tu tc of dear n nt she tc of mi.

hmm. dear let our story goes on. let mi hold ur hand foreva. (: i nid u ; i'll die if u were tu leave mi =/ mayb its a usual sentence rtye. hmm. believe it or nt. i'll do it. i hv thot of leavin dear b4. nt cox i don luv her animore i don adore her animore. its cox i tink i reali don fit tu wif her. be it my status be it myy evryting. it doesnt fit at all. dear wna buy ting oso don dare let mi noe. for she noe i cnt afford it. den don wna let mi feel bad. when i noe dis. i went emo diao. im reali so dat freakin useless. dear wan da ting i cnt afford ; dear sick im nt by her side ; dear sad i don at all ; i mayb emo dis few dae. for i tink im gttin more useless n weak each dae. cnt pei her much ; ps-ed her ; make her pay for stuffs ; made her wry ! a bad bf bah???

if anione wna scold mi for dat. go ahead bah. i noe i deserved tu be scolded! haix. tgt le. too weak nw. tc evryone.
5 more daes my dear...

signin off
naughtyboy
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Sunday, January 20, 2008