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Hmm, Just Another Day.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Hmm, today went chu shi with he quan and he zhong people. Opening of Ion Orchard. Hahas. Damn big larhs. Everything ended, around 12plus. Headed to bugis with dear, and some he zhong people. Was fun, don't know what she don't want eat. While heading towards AMK hub, had a little quarrel with her. It's the first quarrel we had. Maybe what I'm going to continue you guys will find it boring and same old story. But still have to post.

Hmm, sometime I wonder if she really wants to leave her so much eh. Hais. Whenever I disturb her or whatever, she'll always ask me GET LOST, or GO AWAY larhs. And just now I really did that when she say it again. Thus that's the reason for our quarreling. Hmm, I listen to her and I left, went further down of the station. And she called, that's when we quarrel. She insisted me to go back find her, when she asked me to LEAVE, I wanted her to come find me instead as she's the one who want me LEAVE, and now ask me go back. Lol. Thus I hang her call, and went to find her, but we had cold war for sometime. Not that I always want to quarrel with her always because of the same thing. But she always ask me LEAVE, and i won't know if which day, she really wants me to LEAVE. If she really wants me to leave she can just tell me, instead of joking it with me. It may really seems a joke to her. But it's really too hurtful for me eh!

Sometimes not I want to think too much or what eh. Lol. Is that what she say really hurt me alot alot eh. Hais. Sometime, I wonder if I'm really that bad, even if I'm that bad, she also don't need to always say this guy good, that guy handsome when I'm with her. Yes, maybe I'm just really the worst, but somehow I'm still her baby eh. When I'm with her, I didn't say much things about other girls eh, yes, maybe sometime. But I say all this is just to let her know how I feel when she talkk about other guy.

I'm always giving you chances to change, plus you have a lifetime to change, and I've a lifetime for you to continue hurting. (: Don't worry, I won't leave you because of this, we'll last till our 1st month, and will last till the day I step into coffin (: I really want to last, thus I want to plan. But you say you don't want any planning, thus I didn't plan. I respected you, I gave in to you. I never asked for anything, just that you'll care about how I feel more. But what I get from you is more hurtful words.

We can last forever, as I'll never ask for break up. You're the one who'll make the final decision. If in the end, you really found that someone who's better, more handsome than I do, or everything is better than me, let me know. I'll let you go straight away. As I'm the worst afterall. I never regret any decision I made since 010709, and I don't go for a relationship, that's not serious.

Sorry, I made you cry again. I really alot of things to plan, but if you don't want me to plan. Then I shall keep it all to myself. I don't know what to post le. Shall end here.

I Love You, please, don't say those hurtful things again. If one day my heart becomes numb of those hurtful words. Then, I'll not ask much from you anymore, you want do what, go out with who, meet who, stay over night at whoever house also can. Don't need ask me, don't need tell me. Just go ahead bahr. For that time, my heart is numb le. So whatever you do, or say is also normal or nothing to me anymore. YA? So please don't make this day come true. I don't want it come true either. ):

Forget something, today is 3 months before my birthday, and I get to see her for the wholeday, three month later, when it's my actual birthday, I'll be alone the wholeday. ):

Signing off.
N.Boy ):
21:11pm
21.07.09