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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I guess, I know what I really want now. Being there for her is what I can do only. So many things happen her during these period of time, she seems to be weaker and weaker. But there's nothing I can for her. I don't want to see her suffering, but I myself let her suffer. I know I don't any right to comment on anything that's happening between them. Somehow, I feel like having her back. But is this what she want? Will things turn out to be better? I don't know, but I'll try. I know if I were to get her back from his side, alot of unpleasant comment will start to appear. But I just don't want to see her suffering anymore. Maybe I'm not better in anyway, but at least I'll try. I don't know if it's the right decision or not. But all these things will have to wait till she make a decision. If not I can only wait silently. Lol.

This decision doesn't really came out all of a sudden. Many things had been flashing through my mind all these while. But I've yet to really sit down and think. But yesterday I really sit down and think, called nu er and told her alot of things. She's really someone whom I can really talk to whenever I've things to say. Thanks loads. Will be meeting her this thursday, it's been 1 years plus since we last met. Have so much things to tell her. Hahas. Anyway back to the main topic. I've sort out something that I'm unsure about after the chat with her. I know what I should do and what I want now.

To CSC : I guess we should just stay the way we're now. Friend we shall be. Go for your HIM bahr. I guess you two have chance of getting back together de. Good luck. It's nice to meet you. We once were to together, but I guess we're just not fate to be couple bahr? You still have HIM in you heart, I still have HER in my heart. We should just follow our heart. But whenever you need me, I'll still be here for you. All these while it's really great to know you. Hahas. I guess we should really go le bahr? We still can be friends, be gans whatever you name it. But not enemies, not stranger. I've really sort out my question, and I got answer to it already. But somehow or another, I still love her alot. Maybe there isn't much chance for me of getting her back. But I'll still try, I seriously don't want to see her the way she is now. I really want to have her back. I only have one month to do that. But it all depend on her decisions. Maybe you'll say I'm silly, foolish or anything you name it. But I only know one thing, I love her. Thus it's okay for people to blame me, scold me or whatever they want. I just want her back that's all.

Well, all I want to say is that, I still love you. I'll be waiting for you. Even if chances are low, but I'll still wait. Shall end here already, lastly I want you back ):

Signing off.
N.Boy (:
11:01am
03.11.09

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