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Monday, March 17, 2008

lol. what have i done worx? omg. i know whatever i say now is useless. for u lost the trust on me just because of one lie from me. i hope you can gain back the trust on me. i did nothing with her. really nothing. i wouldn't leave you for her. me and her is just frenx.

there's up and down in our story. and this is another obsticals for me. i admit i pass it the wrong way. but then i realise my mistakes and i made and U-turn back to the right path. and now i'm wrong. all i want is just to have someone or a friends that i can talk to. she's just the friends and someone. i wouldn't love her or like her. though i did it. but it had ended. it's just a while. i'm sorry dear. i haven't let go of your hand. so please don't let go of mine too. i hurt you deeply. scars are what's left behind. wound may heals but scars forever. let me close this scars again. and i wouldn't make it tore again. our path its still long. really long. i don't want anything to stop us from loving each other.

finally for so long we faced a big problems. and from this problem i realise. i love you still. and i realise my hearts aren't that firm anymore. i don't want to be like him. but i know somehow i'm like him already. i know it'll be a tough route to make you gain trust on me again. there's first time thus there's the second time. but but i'll not let the second time to happen. i'll make my heart firm. people say that you're hurting me. but in fact i'm the one who hurt you the most. many people going to hate me. but it's what i deserve. people learn from mistakes. and i learnt from mistakes. never hong people. a terrible mistake i ever made. i told you to hang on. but i'm the one who couldn't hang on.

i'll hold it real tight this time. close my heart just for you. i'll treat you better and better. i know the kind of coldness i'd shown you or treated you. it's not a good feelings. but you still hang on. but i failed to do that. i never felt that lonely before. and i realise things always happen when we didn't see each other for one week or more. now i just want to be with you. i know if he saw with yuo again. he's going to kill me. but i don't care. i want to take you away from him. make you mine forever. i know you wouldn't be trusting me again. will use action to prove it. as you say. it take 3 second to sae i love you. i lifetime to prove it. i don't know if a lifetime is given to me anot. for i gt a feeling somethings going to happen to me soon. i don't know when. and don't know what is it. i may die just before you.


but forgive me again if i really leave before you. i know you'll do whatever just to save me. but don't continue your life. you've done too much for me. the love that you have given to me it's enough for me. or maybe too much le. i'm glad. really glad. i'll take the love that you given to me when i dead. rememeber to do something if i'm dead. see the last face of me. for i'll smile on the last path of my journey (: if can gather my friends and burn a big big NAUGHTYBOY for me if got my pics better la. hehx. (: i may just die in my dream. for i wants to end my life just like this. so peaceful. burn everything that will make you remind of me. keep none of them. for i'll be forgotten after that. there's many naughtyboy out there. but this naughtyboy will be forgotten forever. no one will remember of recall anything of me. i'll try to earse all memory of me from everyone that knows me. for i don't worth to be rememeber. (: but i'll try to post before i'm dead. let the last post be the last day of my life. (: make it a 700 post. hehx. means i'll try to post everyday. see hw long can i survive. (: 700 post = 2 yrs. hehx.

signin off...
naughtyboy
9.35am
17/03/08