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6 More Days.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Hmm, glad that you're finally making the descision to forget him le. Before today, he really took up a big space in your heart, and only a small part of your heart belongs to me. You've been leaving in pain since the day he left you till today. He left a big scar in your heart, and I tried my best in every way to mend up that scar. But I don't know if the scar had any recovery anot. But I've really tried my best le. Forgive me if there isn't any sign of recovery. I always thought that you would never make this decision. Your decision really shocked me. Hope you'll walked out of the miserable life that you've been living now. It's not easy for you to forget him. You've tried many time, but not once succeed. Hope this time you'll really forget him.

I always envy him, really envy him. The time he spend with you is much more longer than me. You can spend many night at his place, spent the night at beach, be together for the wholeday. Although most of the time quarrel took place. But at least you can see him often. But I never once had the chance to experience that with you before. I know chances have to grab ourselves but somehow I guess chances aren't given to me. He didn't know how to treasure you. How I wish i could spend more time with you. But somehow it looks diffcult and impossible for it to happen.

6 more days to 1 year 6 months. Hope that during this 1 year 6 months, the time we spend together are meaningfull to you. Hope you're happier also. Although at times we maybe quarreling, and there's big quarrel before also. I'm sorry for letting all that to happen. But remember I once said before, I won't let history happen to you again. Whatever things I can give, I've already tried my very to give le. I know there's still many things you wanted. But I'll still continue to give it to you. Although you're stubborn at times, and always throwing you temper at me. But I tried my best not to quarrel with you. Sometimes even if it's not my fault I'll still take it that it's my fault. Cause I don't want any unhappiness to happen.Sometimes, I'm not feeling very well or in the mood to smile. But I'll still try fake a smile and pretend to be fine, but you're not in the mood, and is throwing tantrum, I also didn't say anything and quietly take in whatever tantrum you've thrown. Cause I know you're not in mood. I'll never let myself to vent anger on you cause I don't wish to hurt you in anyway. There's things I don't wish to let you is because I don't want you to be worry for me. I care alot alot for you.

Lastly, I really hope you've enjoyed yourself for this past 1 year 5 months with me. If I really make you angry or sad, hope you'll forgive me. I'm still trying my best to open up your heart. Don't wish to see you keeping things inside you. I love you. Shall end here. Muacks

Signing off.
NaughtyBoy (:
17:54pm
19.05.09

6 More Days.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009