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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

hais. what had happened? we seem so cold recently. a coldness i once had before. the distance between us, is like getting further and further. i never try to leave you. i wanted you so much. but things i'd done in the past. make you have doubt on me. i try to tell you. but words were never enough. time between us is just too less.

i'll try my best, just to clear all you doubt on me. never will i leave you. i won't promise. i'll prove it to you. time is alli needed. i just hope you don't hurt yourself. take care of yourself. the history will not repeat again. i won't be like him, left you because of a girl. i almost become him, but i controlled myself. so i won't do it again.

hurts is what you received, regrets is what i had. pain is what your heart feel. i made scar in your hurt. i know it'll not heal. it'll always be there. but i didn't mean it. i love you. and i really do. but i don't know how to let you know. i wasn't there for you when you need me badly. i wasn't there when your tears came down, i wasn't there when you're lonely and scare.

i'm sorry. i wanted to be there. but i'm busy nowadays. the fear in you is becoming bigger. but don't be afraid. i'll not let the history repeat once more. i'll be with you. and just you. there won't be another girl for me. even if there's. that girl won't love me as much as you do. i don't care if there's any more better for me. i just want to be with you.

life will be black and white without you. he's like getting to accept me le. so i won't give up. walked so far, just wanted him to accept me. i want to be with you. want you to be my wife. i don't expect more. life will be just enough with you. trust me. i'll prove it to you. will show you what i say is true. i love you. sleep well girl. don't think too much. i love you.

lastly belated happy birthday to you. i fail to accompany you. i let you down. i made you cry badly. hais. sorry. don't know what to say. but please forgive me. i love you loads.

signing off.
N.Boy ):
21:30pm
03.02.09